Peculiar Treasures

A Natural Makeup Look

2012-01-02T04:36:00.000-08:00

Right, so i thought i would do a post on how to get a natural makeup look. This just adds some colour to your face and evens your skin tone. I personally don't mind makeup as long as it just enhances and doesn't add features that you don't have.

So lets get started.

First thing is your foundation. I use a mineral foundation that is very light. It doesn't cover up it just evens out. I also use this to protect my skin from the sun since it has spf 15.

I apply streaks on my cheeks, forehead, nose, eyes and chin.

I then blend with a sponge.

I then use powder. I love powder because if it's a hot day and you've been running around the whole day it's nice to put it on during the day so you have a fresh look throughout the day. Again i use a mineral one by Essence.

Apply with a big brush.

Then i use an eyebrow brush and brush my eyebrows.

The i take an eyebrow pencil the same colour as my eyebrows.

Then i just colour in the spaces.

If i have any blemishes i use this and just apply on my problem areas. This doesn't cover it up it just tones down the redness. I don't have any blemishes right now so i won't be using it now.

In winter i also use this dandelion powder which just gives you an English rose complexion.

Then i use an eye concealer which just makes the eyeshadow last longer and also covers dark circles if you have any.

Cover your brush (it has to be hardish) and just put streaks on your eyelids and under your eye.

This is the finishing product of the basics.

Then i take a cheek and lip stain. Make sure it's a stain so it doesn't come off during the day.

Apply on eyelids, cheeks and lips.

Then you curl your eyelashes.

Then i use a soft pink eyeshadow. I use a soft brush and apply on my eyelids.

Then i take a small, liner brush.

And apply a tiny bit under my eye by my inner crease.

Then this is a lip balm with a tint in it and spf 15.

I apply it with a brush so that it gets into the creases too.

And this is the finished product.

I do not use eyeliner or mascara since my eyelashes are naturally dark and thick and i find that eyeliner and mascara are too harsh on the eyes.

What do you think?

Love,
Me.

P.S. I'm make overing my blog so excuse the way it looks now.

I'm Still Alive.

2012-01-01T01:59:00.000-08:00

Wow, i havn't posted in quite a while. I think i should post some updates here and maybe even pictures. It's just whenever i want to post i always go speachless and have no idea what to say. So i will do it slowly.

We are moving around and are renting a really lovely place in a small Afrikaans town called Parys. It's really nice and small and you don't have that city hustle and bustle. I have the most awesome room here decorated with lavender. It feels good to have a comfy room. The last house that we were renting from for the November month wasn't that great. It was waaaay waaay out in the country where all the long grass is .... and long grass = lots and lots of big bugs.
It was a really nice big house and i had a king sized bed but after seeing a massive spider bigger than my hand running towards me in my room i refused to sleep there. It jumped too ... *shivers*. So for the whole month i slept on the couch. It wasn't too bad.

But here i have an awesome bed aaand we have air conditioning. Awesome.!! This summer is really really really hot.

I also have some good news ... My mom is pregnant!!!!! I'm soooo happy. I'm finally going to have a baby brother or sister but i'm holding out and praying for a sister. We already picked out names. If it's a girl I think my mom wants Isabella Aimee (pronounce uh-mee). And if it' a boy then Joshua Levi. My mom is 2 months along and gets really sick in the afternoon but she's good.

And i can't remember if i posted this on facebook or if i posted it here but we're not moving to Alaska anymore. We're staying in SA which i'm happy about. I like Africa.

Also, i will be starting dancing again. I don't know if anybody knew this but i started Ballet when i was 4 and went on till i was 14 and on pointe already. But i stopped because i believe God wanted me to stop. And during that time God taught me so much but now i believe He's telling me it's ok to start again. My mom says maybe it's part of my calling to go into a dancing ministry. I've always wanted to be a dancing teacher even when i was a little girl. Being a professional on stage never really appealed to me. Probably all the stuff that happens backstage's not so kosher.

I found this really awesome teacher that my mom is going to call tomorrow. In the mean time i've been stretching and am getting nice and flexible again. I'm also eating a lot healthier with lots of protein and frutis and vegetables.

Here's a video that i find that i thought was really neat. http://youtu.be/p0K799l2mNQ.

Sorry having trouble to actually post it on here.

Love,
Me.

In the Garden of my Heart

2011-10-23T01:43:00.000-07:00

I have a picture in my mind and heart. When Abba tells me something i like to make a picture to help me remember it. Sometimes i sketch it.

~

I have a garden with all different types of flowers and trees. Lots of strangers have come and after a while i open my gate to let them in. But one after the other they have trampled over my garden. They leave me heart broken. One day after many strangers have come and gone my garden is wilting and is taken over by weeds that the strangers have left behind. Soon my garden is no longer colourful but is brown and ugly. I go and kneel before God, the One that i let in but shoved to the corner of my garden. I invite Him to come and help me restore my garden. To make it beautiful again.

God is with me now in my garden and I'm having the time of my life in my Jane Austen dress, my curly hair blowing in the breeze. I have my apron on cleaning out all the weeds, pruning and watering my plants making it new. God is with me telling me stories, some sad, some funny. Sometimes He sings a song and we both dance and sing together.

I have a bench where on every 7th day i like to relax and read. When i first started cleaning my garden, God took me to my gate, my freshly painted white picket fence. He held out His hand and i knew what He wanted: my key. I hand Him my key and He smiles really big at me. He took the key and locked my gate. He then told me that He will hold the key for me as He knows my garden better than i do. He knows that i mustn't open it up to just anybody because they don't know how to take care of it. I left the key in His hands.

Lots of strangers have come to my white picket fence again. After a while i still wanted to let them into my garden but i remember that i don't have the key. I look to Abba with hopeful eyes but He gently shakes His head. I'm sad for awhile but i trust God remembering the previous strangers that I've let in.
I learn to trust God and to have Him as the only one in my garden right now. Soon the strangers have stopped coming and i soon forget about them. During that time God and I form a very strong bond.

One day a stranger comes. I get off my bench and walk to him. We start talking. I notice something different about him but am still weary to let anyone in. Everyday he comes and we talk but he doesn't ask to come into my garden. Not yet.
One day when this stranger and i become very good friends, Abba comes and opens up my gate and tells me that my garden is ready and that this stranger won't trample all over it, but will nurture it.

~

The strangers that have come into my garden are not all men, some are other things too.
I just got this picture this morning and i think it's beautiful.
I've been reading a book called 'Praying for Your Future Husband" by Robin Jones Gunn and Tricia Goyer. This is a book i highly recommend. I started reading it but decided I'm too 'young' to be praying for my future husband, i would start when I'm 16 but i feel God is nudging me to pray for him everyday. Besides, I'm 16 in 3 weeks, lol.
In the book Robin says that as you pray for you FH you draw closer to God. I didn't believe that but as i started praying for him i have such a weird but awesome feeling. I feel like i have drawn closer to God in an indescribable way and i feel like there's a connection between my FH and i. It might sound ridiculous but give it a try. Start praying for your FH and you will see and feel a difference.

Try praying for you FH and you will see how things will change.

Reckless Abandon

2011-10-02T01:20:00.000-07:00

Phew, whee. I'm back home. I extended my holiday at my family for another 2 weeks =D. I really needed that. Abba knew ... I was super stressed, but i mean super super stressed and i felt literally numb from all the feelings inside of me. I started taking my feelings out on myself but my dad spotted the evidence, spoke to me and i told him everything. I feel closer to my dad, which is nice. The nice thing is, is that he didn't shout at me, he just asked me and spoke to me gently.

I'm over that. Spending time in the beautiful Midlands countryside was breathtaking and relaxing. It gave me time to stop being the 'mom' in the house and to get away and ponder some things. I bought a few books down there, one of them is Leslie Ludy's book 'Set-Apart Femininity'. I thought it was just a book on how to dress but it goes much deeper than that and it really opened my eyes to certain things that was hindering my relationship with Abba. I love femininity. I love seeing a women in the mall dressing fashionably modest and feminine. It's a breath of fresh air amongst the sexy skinny jeans and heels. But i struggle to apply femininity to my own life. I kind of grew up believing that dressing like a girl was wrong. Whenever i wore a skirt my dad would frown and ask why. I walked away feeling weird for dressing girly. While i was on holiday a light bulb went off. I was sitting on my family's porch reading a book, my one cousin was sitting next to me fiddling on my laptop. We were talking about something ... can't remember what when she told me that i'm a city girl. We then went into a banter of 'yes you are', 'no i'm not', when at last i asked her why. She told me it's because i dress like a girl.

My immediate response? "No i do not!!!!!!". After i said that i froze and felt a jolt. I believe it was Abba. A thought immediately went through my head ... why is that so wrong? Why is dressing girly frowned upon? Why is "you dress like a girl" said with disgust? This might not be for some people but this is how i grew up. If you were referred to as a girl, you were weak. So i grew up like a tomboy!
Even acting like a girl. Women are weaker than men but women always try to beat men by proving they're stronger and better than men.

A woman cannot be herself in the society of the present day, which is an
exclusively masculine society, with laws framed by men and with a judicial
system that judges feminine conduct from a masculine point of view.
~ Herik Ibsen.

Women are different. And it's time women start acting and dressing like women and stop trying to prove something by being men. Women are precious in their own uniqueness and they have a special calling that can only be done by them. Men can't fulfill a woman's calling and women can't fulfill a man's calling.

Abba is taking me on a big journey. I'm so excited, i feel like i'm just starting my relationship with Him. He's showing me things that was hindering my relationship with Him. Things that was stopping me growing in intimacy with Him. It was very simple things that i thought never impacted my life. Like movies that i thought were harmless but actually do a lot of harm to my spiritual life. Whenever i sit down to watch a movie i always get these thoughts that i believe is Abba trying to draw me away. But i always watch through it scared about what my family members will think but once a think that, another thought comes in ... choose either the applause of this world or the applause of your Prince! It's getting easier to walk away and i'm trying to be more open with my family members about my faith.

Often i think i can stand up and die for YHVH and not be scared. I always think that i can live with nothing and live in Uganda or India helping the poor and the orphans but i can't even do that now in little ways. So i'm trying to deny myself more and more and to just set my eyes on Abba and see that He is all that matters. Him living through me. I'm not important, it's the King of the universe that matters. And He's more concerned about my character than my comfort.

I'm trying to get rid of the trash in my life. I know there is a lot but Abba is showing me slowly. Like when i eat i sometimes read comic books Asterix and Obelix, but Abba has showed me what's wrong with that. I studied what druids were like in the 'ancient' times and they're not as sweet as Getafix comes across. Also their constant reference to their gods.

Instead of watching movies i read Abba's word and study study study. I try to spend at least an hour every morning in His word and an hour every night before i go to bed. I also read in a book that what you think about before you drift off to sleep is what your life was about that day. I thought back about all the things i think about before i go to sleep and realized that it's not about my Prince. so now i try to force myself to think about Him before i drift off to sleep and the minute i wake up to turn my thoughts to Him. I want my life to just be about Him and have an intimate relationship with Him.

And to follow Him with reckless abandon.

A Tiny Preview

2011-09-07T01:15:00.000-07:00

I've flown down to Durban to visit family before i move to the USA. I'm here for a week. I've been her since Sunday and i'm enjoying myself, being in the country side is very relaxing. Except for the spiders that are everywhere ...! But i'm getting used to them, lol.

I haven't been taking photos but i will start. Here's just 3 little photos.

{My 2 Aunts. My aunt on the right has just flown up here from Australia which is nice}

{That's their driveway}

{On the way to the horses}

I am Woman

2011-08-25T15:43:00.000-07:00

I’ve been praying a lot about this. On how to be a woman. The desire that I had and the calling I thought was on my life was joining the army, Israeli army. But a very special friend e-mailed and opened my eyes to Abba’s truth and what He thought about women in the army. I prayed about this really wanting Abba to teach me. But you see, I was beating around the bush. The Deuteronomy verse that says women mustn’t wear men’s garments and vice versa, in the Hebrew t actually says that women shouldn’t put on warriors armour and men shouldn’t wear the bridal garments. It’s in plain black and white but I was praying asking God, in other words, to tell me what I want to hear.

I prayed He would take the desire away if it wasn’t His will but I was quietly clinging to it, not wanting Him to take it. I know it may seem like a crazy desire. To join the army of all things. But Israel is home for me and seeing the land and people go through all that trouble, I want to fight for them. To stand up and physically fight. But there are other ways to fight other than physically.

Also, I wasn’t happy to be a woman. I wanted to be a man because I had it in my mind that women were to be seen and not heard. Women did nothing other than raise the kids and cook and clean and the men went out and experienced the world. Also growing up, I was a tomboy. I was climbing trees, playing cops and robbers, soccer, and wrestling with my brother and his friends. I wore boyish shorts and my brother’s hand –me-down t-shirts. I didn’t have the ‘family on the farm’ experience where I was taught how to be a woman. And of course my dad and brother loved me being the tomboy. But I did have my princess outfits and plastic heel shoes, my plastic princess jewellery and handbags. I loved having tea parties with my Barbie dolls every afternoon. I had a pink room with Barbie posters everywhere. Flowers and butterflies. So I guess I was a mixture of both but I was never taught the value and role of women. I just knew the role of men.

I’ve been praying that Abba will teach me what He had in mind when He created women.

He’s taught me a lot, by observing, reading, listening, and watching. Now I will never be a girly girl. I’ll always have a tomboyish side to me. Especially moving to Alaska, I will have to learn to shoot a gun in case of bears and also Mark will be taking me moose hunting and you can’t forget the salmon run where everyone goes fishing for salmon. In Alaska you can’t be knitting at home, checking the soup type of girl.

But, women are not men, there’s something special and awesome about a women dressing, acting and speaking like a lady. That’s why God says that when the 2 come together they become one. They are opposites.
Here are a few tips that I have gleaned.

DRESS!
Women must dress like women. I know I tend to dress very ‘manly’ especially now with winter I wear my pants. But I wear my cargos and sweatshirts. That’s not very feminine. I don’t think pants are evil, I prefer skirts because they in a way belong to women. Pants belong to men. But right now they’re not practical for me because of the August winds blowing winter away, wearing a skirt will not be very good because it will blow everywhere including up. But women should wear girly tops like blouses with feminine patterns on them and flatters your figure. I struggle with this since I have big hips and most clothes I fine come in at the hips so they will just make me look big. But you have to wear the right clothes for you type of body shape.

I always like to think when I look in the mirror if a man would be seen in this outfit. If you’re wearing baggy jeans and a checked, plain cut blouse the answer would be yes.

It's too much the same,

Rather wear a blouse that men would never be caught dead in.

I also think accessories are a great way to express your femininity. But dainty ones.

I also don’t shun make-up either. As long as the make-up is to enhance and not to cover. Unless you have bad acne. I have never had bad skin. The worst I get are having to pimples at the same time, lol. I am very grateful and I have a natural blush. But I mean a serious blush. The slightest bit of heat or cold and my cheeks go bright red. Ask my friends. I can’t hide my feelings that way either. When I feel on the spot or nervous I go bright red. I’m not joking and during the day I will have pinkness on my cheeks. I’m very happy I have that and don’t have to put blusher on. I was experimenting with make-up the other night. I put foundation on my right side of my face to see if it maybe will even out my skin tone because of all my freckles. I showed my mom and asked which side looks better. She told me the right looks smoother but she says that she said the right side of my face, my rosy cheeks were gone and my freckles.

Hmmmm, so if I want to put base on to even my skin tone and make my skin look healthier I have to after that put on artificial blush on top of that to make it look like I’m not wearing any base. So for me I have found out a solution. I just wear a bit of eye-make. To enhance my eyes but very little just to make my eyelashes look thicker and nothing else.
Have you ever noticed how celebrities wear their eye make-up? For example, Taylor Swift puts her make-up on to make her eyes look ‘cat-like’.

But she takes the make-up off and her eyes aren’t that shape anymore.

That’s when I think make-up is abused. It’s lying paint. And makes you look like something you’re not.

Here are other celebrities without makeup.

I like to look at these pictures to build up my self-esteem. To see that these celebrities aren’t naturally flawless like that.

SPEECH and CONDUCT!

Living in South Africa with the Afrikaans influence – which is very rough with a lot of slang words (in my opinion) – I’ve noticed that some women’s speech and conduct is very manly. It’s hard to explain but they don’t act like women. Thinking back on when I was younger I have had that influence. I’ve tried to become more genteel when I’ve found Torah. Women should be gentle with a quiet spirit. And not boisterous and loud with their laughter or speech. Women who act like that kind of scare me off.

When they walk they should always have their posture up with a confident look.

I was searching the net last night and found a few sweet things on women.

I’ll finish this post with them. And if I learn anything new on this (I’m sure I will), I will share it with you.

The creation of the woman is the best proof that God really does exist.

She is a gift made just for man and a masterpiece of beauty and grace.
Her elegant magnificence shines like the brilliance of the morning sun.
Who other than God could create a creature with such a beautiful face.

Looking into her touching and lovely eyes, the man could only declare,
To God be the glory for the astounding beauty that I am blessed to see.
The only credible proof I will ever need that God does indeed exist.
Is the outstanding beauty of the woman that my God created for me.

~

It is really wonderful to be a woman!

The time the LORD made women, He was into Hiis 6th day of working overtime.
An Angel appeared and said, “why are you spending so much time on this one?”

And the LORD answered and said,
“Have you seen the spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
Have 200 movable parts, all replaceable,
Run on black coffee and leftovers,
Have a lap that can hold 3 children at one time and
That disappears when she stands up,
Have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart.
And have 6 pairs of hands.”

The Angel was astounded at the requirements for this one.
“Six pairs of hands! No way! , said the Angel.

The LORD replied,
“Oh, it’s not the hands that are the problem.
It’s the 3 pairs of eyes that the woman must have!”
“And that’s just on the standard model?” the Angel asked.

The LORD nodded in agreement.
Yep, one pair of eyes are to see through the closed door as she asks her children what
They are doing
Even though she already knows.
Another pair in the back of her head are to see what she needs to know
Even though no one thinks she can.
And the third pair are here in the front of her head.
They are for looking at an errant child and saying that she understands and loves him
Or her without even saying a single word.”

The Angel tried to stop the LORD.
“This is too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."
“But I can’t!”, the LORD protested,
“I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.”
She already heals herself when she is sick AND
Can fee a family of 6 on a pound of hamburger and
Can get a nine year old to stand in the shower.

The Angel moved closer and touched the woman,
“but you have made her so soft LORD”
“She is soft”, the LORD agrees, “but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can accomplish.”
“Will she be able to think?” asked the Angel.
The LORD replied,
“not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate.”

The Angel ten noticed something and reached out and touched the woman’s cheek.
“Oops, it look like you have a leak with this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one.”

“that’s not a leak,” the LORD objected,
“that’s a tear!”
“What’s the tear for?” the Angel asked.
The LORD said,
“the tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain,
Her disappointment, her loneliness, her grief, and her pride.”

The Angel was impressed.
“You are a genius, LORD.
You thought of everything, for women are truly amazing”

Love,

Me!

The Time Has Come

2011-08-22T13:18:00.000-07:00

It's time. I can tell everyone my big news that i've been bottling up for months. Here it comes ........... we're moving ..... my mom's getting married again ...... I know it's' shocking but it's true. She's met this amazing guy on the Internet. He lives in Alaska and she went over there for a week. He then came over here for 3 weeks. His name is Mark and he is an amazing man after God's own heart ... seriously. I didn't know men like that existed. But take heart, they do =D.

So, my mom and i will be moving to Alaska. My brother hasn't decided if he wants to come with us or if he wants to stay here. I would suggest he comes with us because there's a lot more opportunity in America than there is here in Africa. Especially if Julius Malema becomes the president. He hates white people and he probably will become president in a few years since he's got all the youth on his side.

I'm excited and sad at the same time. Excited 'cause there's a lot more for me to do there and the crime is way less. Sad because I'm leaving all my precious friends and family behind. But Mark is a pilot so he pays only 10% of ticket prices. He said i can fly back here as much as i want to, so that's pretty awesome.

My mom has gone back to Alaska for 6 weeks. I'm going crazy here and she's only been gone for 1 day. I miss my mom terribly, she's my best friend and she keeps me sane in this crazy house. But strangely my grandfather is acting kinder towards my brother and i, he never used to be like that. My dad has also taken quite a turn.

I'm so glad i could write this now. Tell everyone so i can post updates about this new chapter of my life living for Abba.

I want to draw closer to Him everyday and i feel like I'm failing left, right and center. I get close and then the enemy hits me in my weak spot and pulls me down. With Mark being here and me sleeping in my mom's room so he can sleep in my room i haven't been able to spend time with Abba alone to pray and read His word for 4 weeks and i feel it. And with this thing going on with Israel. The terrorist attacks i feel so helpless. I pray for them and cry because i feel like they're my brothers and sisters and that's my home and they're going through so much and i feel like i can't help in any way. I want to help so badly.

But all i can do for now is pray. Prayer is sharper than any 2 edged sword, right? of course right.

I just feel like maybe God is disappointed in me for some reason. I know i have a big problem of comparing myself to other people. I very big problem, that's my weak spot and the enemy knows that's wear to point the arrow. He always manages to hit the bulls eye. Now, I'm not vain. All i want is to be pretty, i want to be pretty on the inside and i want that to shine to the outside. I don't feel pretty inside and i don't feel pretty outside at all. I know God looks at the heart but it's hard in the environment that i live in. Where you walk in the mall and see thin women looking beautiful. Or posters of women and magazine covers screaming that I'm not pretty unless i look like the world. I get that when i walk out the door and i get that when I'm indoors. My brother keeps telling me to cut my hair short, i don't look nice with long hair. Wear tighter clothing, you have to show you have a body.
I know i wear sack like clothing. But it's because i have such low self-esteem. And my brother isn't helping.

Then with all this i feel like God doesn't think I'm pretty, inside or out. I don't mean for this post to sound like a big sob story but this I've battled with this ever since I've started following Torah and dressing differently. Being told that I'm not dressing right.

I try not to focus on my outward appearance, i try so hard to focus on my inward more. To be gentle, and to shine because Yeshua lives inside of me. To have a soft heart and to be a Proverbs 31 women. I want to be that so badly, but it's so hard.

I know this is a battle and i need Abba. The enemy uses this all the time. He knows this is where i feel weak and vulnerable. When i start getting strong and start thinking that hey, maybe i am pretty on the inside and outside. But then the enemy comes and whispers in my ear, that I'm not good enough and never will be.

Not good enough for God.

I know it's not about worth. Go loves me not for what i do but for who i am. He loves me with an unconditional love. And He will keep loving me through my struggles and help me through it. I just need to keep reminding myself of this truth. I do everyday.

I just want to encourage other ladies out there, young and old. To keep pushing through. God loves you more than you will ever know. He doesn't look at what you can't do or your flaws, he looks at what you're capable of doing. And He's going to use you for His Kingdom. He's proud of the women you are and who you are becoming. You're blossoming into a women of valour, a virtuous women.

A women after His own heart.

Writing these words are even encouraging me and i feel a peace coming over me. In this world we will have trouble, but take heart, He has overcome the world.

~

If you ever look at yourself and feel

that you don't measure up, read this and your outlook

will change before you're finish reading it!

This is good to keep, not just to read from time to time,

but to also keep stored in your heart!

Enjoy and remember who you are!!!

"When I created the heavens and the earth,

I spoke them into being.

When I created man, I formed him and

breathed life into his nostrils.

But you, I fashioned

after I breathed the breath of life into man

because your nostrils are too delicate.

I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so

I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.

Man was put to sleep so that

he could not interfere with the creativity.

From one bone I fashioned you.

I chose the bone that protects man's life.

I chose the rib,

which protects his heart and lungs and supports him,

as you are meant to do.

Around this one bone, I shaped you ...

I modelled you.

I created you perfectly and beautifully.

Your characteristics are as the rib,

strong yet delicate and fragile.

You provide protection for

the most delicate organ in man, his heart.

His heart is the centre of his being;

his lungs hold the breath of life.

The rib cage will allow itself to be broken

before it will allow damage to the heart.

You are My perfect angel ... you are My beautiful little girl.

You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence,

and My eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart.

Your eyes ... don't change them.

Your lips -- how lovely when they part in prayer.

Your nose, so perfect in form.

Your hands so gentle to touch.

I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep.

I've held your heart close to Mine.

Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me.

Adam walked with Me in the cool of the day,

yet he was lonely.

He could not see Me or touch Me. He could only feel Me.

So everything I wanted Adam to share

and experience with Me, I fashioned you;

My holiness, My strength, My purity,

My love, My protection and support.

You are special because you are an extension of Me.

Man represents my image, woman my emotions.

Together, you represent the totality of God.

You are loved, respected and fragile."

~author unknown

Remember who you are. God's daughter, a princess!!!

Love,

Me!

Hi World

2011-08-20T02:07:00.000-07:00

Wow, i havn't written on here in ages. Sorry about that. I've been very busy. I really wish i could tell everyone about everything that's happening but i can't just yet. I don't really know what else to write about. Haha. But i must update my blog and tell everyone that we are moving .... can't say where, though :( !!!

With everything happening my mom and i are not able to go to Israel this year but we will next year for 2 weeks which I'm very happy about. I'm a bit nervous since we have some friends that went over there and they said they thought they could live there but after seeing it, it was just a big culture shock and they say now that they can't live there anymore. I know it's not a fairy tail land and there are a lot of hard things to deal with over there. We have very special friends over there who are super, super close to Abba and they have a lot of spiritual wisdom and they really hear Abba's voice. They told my mom this the one time, "I really feel God wants me to tell you this. Israel is not a fairy tail land, it's a war zone. But He wants you to live in this war zone."! Now, with the way everything is going ... i can't really see that as a possibility. But i do feel that maybe, just maybe it's true. Or maybe my emotions are getting in the way. I love Israel very much even though it's a war zone. I feel like i am strong enough to live there but I'm not too sure about that.

Did i ever tell you guys that i have Israelite ancestry? I was shocked when i found out but i do!! Haha. On my mom's side. My mom's granfather is Scottish so it comes through that line. Did you know that 1 in every 5 Scotsman is an Israelite? When the Scottish Declaration of Independence was written they believed they were Israelites that went to Scotland after the exile. This is from the Scottish Declaration of Independence - - - "Most Holy Father and Lord, we know and from the chronicles and books of the ancients we find that among other famous nations our own, the Scots, has been graced with widespread renown. They journeyed from Greater Scythia by way of the Tyrrhenian Sea and the Pillars of Hercules, and dwelt for a long course of time in Spain among the most savage tribes, but nowhere could they be subdued by any race, however barbarous. Thence they came, twelve hundred years after the people of Israel crossed the Red Sea, to their home in the west where they still live today. "

Very interesting, eh? I love learning about my biological background. You find things that you never expected. For example my mom says there's a rumour in her family that one of our great great (etc) grandmother's were Indian. Shocking. I don't think that's true but it's interesting!

Anyway, enough about that.

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So, the one thing that i never, ever wanted happen to me, is happening to me. ..... I have to go for an operation. I have been so careful when i was younger to not hurt myself in any bad way so that i won't have stitches. Even when i cut my finger very deeply with a razor and everyone said i needed to go and get stitches, i said no. I doctor told me once i would have go for an op for my nose. My mom said no (I'm all better now, lol). But, i now have to, have to go for this one ..... It's to have my wisdom teeth out. I've been praying for about a year asking God to let Him make my wizzies fit in my mouth. But then i got a feeling that He wasn't going to do that. You have to face your fears. I had an X-ray done 2 years ago for them and they were nearly at the surface. Now I'm starting to feel one. Yesterday when i was at a birthday party i didn't feel anything. Then last night i got a sudden pain by my gum at the back where your wisdom teeth go. That whole place is sore. And when i close my mouth ... it feels weird. My brother had his out when he was 16 so i know it's my time now but .... *sigh*. Seeing my brother deal with the after affects makes me a bit worried. But i know my brother is a wuss when it comes to pain. And i can handle pain. I'm not scared, really.
I guess it's the thought of them dislocating my jaw ... ouch. And the anesthetic scares me a bit. What if i wake up while they're still busy? What if i react badly to the anesthetic? That's the only thing I'm worried about. But i know none of that will happen, lol.

Well, that was a bit of a post, lol.

Not really an update but something =D.

Love,
Me!

What Men Think About Eye Make-up

2011-07-21T12:28:00.000-07:00

This is funny. Gotta watch this, haha.

Love,
Me!

Just My Desire? Or My Abba's Desire Too?

2011-07-13T12:48:00.000-07:00

I think I've figured out what my calling is. It's not what i thought it would be. And I'm still praying to Abba asking if this is my desire or if it is His desire for me. I've always wanted to do it ever since my brother said he wanted to do it. I've always wanted to do something big but always thought a woman's place was at home and only at home. Not realizing God has different plans for everyone.

I forgot about my dream, pursuing homemaking instead. My mom put the spark back inside of me the other day. But i was scared that it was my desire and not God's. Because, to many people it will seem not a proper place for a woman. I've been praying really hard, not wanting to stray away from my Abba's will. I prayed that Abba will take away my desire if it's not what He wants. So far the desire is still there and growing stronger everyday. I wake up each morning looking at the picture of what i want to do on my cell phone background - checking to see if the desire is still there. And it still is.

I've been very stressed lately. Waking up having my heart beating so fast i feel like i can't breathe properly. Waking up having bad dreams. Begging God to give me peace. Which He does of course. Now, i know my Father. He will take the desire away immediately if it's not His will. He's done that before to me.

I'm working hard to train myself for the possible calling on my life. Learning Hebrew, getting strong physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally. What this desire is not a light thing. It's tough and sometimes i get worried that i won't be strong enough for it. But Abba in His awesome way just keeps popping that verse in my head, "I will harden you to difficulties"!!!

I want to be epic, a woman of valour for my King.

I won't say what this desire is just yet. I still need to pray about it although i think i know the answer already deep down.

Thinking to my future and what i know is in store for me i can't help thinking that it is preparation for this. My mom thinks so too.

This desire is not to stay in this country. I will have to move when I'm older. Right now i can't see how this will work seeing as there are a lot of things standing in my way. But nothing stands in my Abba's way. And if He wants this done, it will be done.

Lady in Waiting

2011-06-14T03:23:00.000-07:00

This has to be one of my absolute fave books ever.

I've been looking for a book like this for ages, not a book on what to do while you're waiting for Mr. Right, like dusting the house and vacuuming but a book on how to become God's best while waiting for him.

I found this book while rummaging through my mom's corner cupboards looking for a hair iron. It was like finding hidden treasure.

It was heaven sent.

I've been struggling with a lot of ... ummm ... struggles, haha, and this book has opened my eyes to why because it's not just another singles book but teaches on a lot of other points that i need.

I'm savouring this book like chocolate.

A hang of a lot is happening here and my life is kinda being turned up side down very quickly. I can't write what's happening here yet but i will.

My mom is being called to do some profound stuff and seeing what's happening in her life right now is giving me hope for my future. I'm also going to be stepping into my calling (don't know how soon, though), I'm just praying that Abba will prepare my heart and train my fingers for it. And that He will transform me into His daughter and princess that's He's proud of. That's all i want ... is to make my Abba proud of me.

This is my favourite part in the book.

One of life's most costly and beautiful objects is born out of pain and irritation - the pearl. A tiny piece of sand slips into an oyster's shell and begins to rub against the soft tissue, causing irritation. In response to the irritation, the oyster produces a hard substance. This substance eventually develops into one of the world's most beautiful jewels - a lovely luminous pearl. In fact, the greater the irritation, the more valuable the pearl!

Awesome, right? Now i see the difficult times that i go through as Abba forming me into His princess.

I want to learn more about Abba's character. Ever since i became a 'Christian' i never saw God as the perfect Abba. Probably because of problems with my own earthly father. The way you see your dad some how makes you see God like that. And if you have an awesome father that serves God that can be a big boost in your relationship with Him. But for those girls out there that don't have that kind of father. It's hard to see God as a gentle, patient, humble, loving father.

I know God's character, it's written all over His Torah that He is just awesome, but i struggle .... *sigh*!

I know Abba is going to take me out of this hole i feel like i'm in. I know, know it, know it. Things are happening here that i can't explain now but this is changing my life completely and i know most people either won't believe me or just think I'm nuts. But hey, God's ways are not our ways, right? Of course right!

I just thought of this the other day ... when we or I, don't know about other people, think about God's timing i always think slow. I want it done now but He only wants it down in another few days, months or years. But I've learned, God can also move very quickly. Like you want something done in another few days, months or years but nooooo, He wants it done now!!!!

I'm personally see a bright light at the end my tunnel and I'm just getting a few shapes of what's on the other side and I'm excited already. There's a much brighter future waiting for me. *jumps up and down*!!!

Just want to tell everyone that between now and probably ..... ummmm .... around August, September i won't be writing often. As you may have noticed i hardly get on the comp. anymore. To those of you who have e-mailed me i will get back to you as soon as i can. I'm so sorry for taking so long.

Just so much has been happening here and I'm so excited.

ABBA IS SOOOOO AMAZING!!!!!!!!!

He definitely gives you the desires of your heart.

Love,

Me!

Clears Throat ....... HI ........ smiles!

2011-06-07T08:03:00.000-07:00

Hi Everyone,

OK, i apologize for not posting anything earlier to say that i won't be on for awhile. So much has been happening here and i when I'm going through something i am not in the right mind set to write on my blog. I went through a really big learning lesson. I was in bondage and Abba freed me from that and showed me who i am and how He created me. Ever since i turned 13 i always tried to be like somebody else. If it wasn't this person then it was the next and it became very tiring. Abba took me, showed me how He uniquely made me. Now i am learning to be me, it's hard, haha.

Abba also showed me a lot on beauty and women and how He wired us. I always thought plain was 'in', and if I'm plain then God is happier with me ... well i wasn't happy at all!!
When i say plain i mean, no colour, i wore greys and browns and blacks, i chucked out my wonderful, awesome jewelry collection thinking it was wrong to wear them, i grew my hair all the way down to my waist, wore takkies, and i thought less is more, so i wanted no TV in my room or any of the other electronics in my room. You can say i read too many Amish books. Now I'm not saying plain is wrong, God has called some people to pursue a life of plain.

But not me.

I'm a creative person who loves colour, if i don't have colour around me, i feel miserable.

Before i turned 13 i was me, i know this sounds weird but it's true, i wore what i wanted to and didn't care what people thought of me. I was the type of girl who grabbed my tennis racket, pretending it was a guitar, and my hairbrush and danced around my room, singing. I was creative in my dress code, etc, etc.

I turned Amish and became somebody else. I was practically miserable for a very long time.

Now my dear friends, i have changed. Abba still needs to do a lot in me and take me out of my mousy, shy bubble. It's OK to be shy but .... well .... I'm too shy. Unless I've known you for along time, then you see me coming alive =D.

My views on a lot of things have changed.

I don't mind pants, especially in winter. But i don't find them terribly immodest like i did before. I still wear skirts a lot but on some days i wear my pants (but only in winter, in summer it's too hot for pants and i prefer skirts). But i always make sure i wear a longish top over them and that they're not too tight.

I don't mind make-up. I thought make-up was really, really bad. I don't wear a lot because it makes me look weird.

I went through a make-over too, haha. My dad gave me some money and i went winter shopping, i dyed my hair, NOT permanent, semi permanent so it washes out after about 10 washes. I dyed it from my cold, ash brown/blonde to a dark chocolate brown.

Why i started on this whole beauty research is that i was thinking of the biblical women. Especially Sarah. Avraham was rich so I'm sure Sarah wore beautiful clothing and for the Pharaoh to want her as his wife she must have looked stunning and probably wore some kohl. I highly doubt she was au natural.
The women in those times also wore jewellery like bracelets, nose rings, earrings. And when people take that one verse in 1 Timothy 2:9-10 where Sha'ul says he wants women to adorn themselves in modest apparel not with braided hair etc, and say that that means no make-up and no fancy hairstyle. I'm sure he was talking to the Pagan women who were just overdoing it.

The 1st thing people notice is of course your looks.

So I've learning a lot on this, went to quite a few websites and I've noticed that the Christens say that women must be natural and she must dress plain and baggy clothes while Judaism teaches that it's a women's glory to dress beautifully and she must take care of herself. I love learning from Judaism and i know a lot of people will say Judaism is wrong but, hey, they can teach us a lot, they had the Torah longer and just because they are in error with some things doesn't mean we can't learn or glean from them. I like what a one teacher that i like listening too said. Eat the meat and spit out the bones.

Anyhoo. Some of you may be wondering how every thing's going here with my family? Every thing's good. My parents are getting divorced. I'm going to dinner with my dad on Wednesday night to talk to him. My brother went out to the movies with him a week ago and was able to talk to my dad then. My brother seems to be warming up to my dad now, yay. Baruch YHVH!!!!

Today my mom is going to find out about hockey and tennis for me. Ever since I've stopped ballet I've missed the exercises. I just really pray that if i can do hockey that the tournaments won't be on a Saturday. I'm looking forward to doing sport, i looooove sports.

I'm also going to look into some courses i might be able to do, like photography, interior design and fashion illustration. I want to do fashion illustration because i think it will teach me a lot on sketching. I found some good courses i can do at home, online.

Well, that was a little update on my life, i will try and update my blog more often =D.

Love,
Me!

Oh, How I Love Him

2011-05-12T12:12:00.000-07:00

{Picture taken by me at the beach in Cape Town}

I love my Abba, and my Abba loves me.

He is the father that i never had.

He cares for me, He wants to protect me, He wants me to dress modestly, He thinks i'm beautiful, He doesn't look at other girls and say how proud He is of them and then ignore me.

Yep, i'm glad YHVH is my Abba.

!He is the perfect Abba!

TTFN

2011-05-04T10:16:00.000-07:00

Right, tomorrow we're off to Cape Town. I'm so excited. I'm really nervous about the flying thing, though, haha. Really, really. But it's good that I'm going. It's kinda like a warm up for Israel.
For the Israel trip we will be getting a connecting flight to Turkey (with Kosher food, too, yay) then fly to Israel, it's cheaper that way. I'm donning my pants with a long top for that. Turkey is a very Muslim country and you do not look like a Jew while going there, crikey. We will be leaving on the 27th of June and coming back the 4th of August, i think. That's really awesome since we miss the coldest month of the year, July. I'm glad we're not flying El Al 'cause the movies are only in Hebrew and they are so strict (i don't blame them) that they pull all your luggage out and rummage through it ... hmmmm, not happy with that.

I want to get a few Hebrew tracksuit tops. A friend went to Israel a while back and got a green IDF one and a black one that said 'Hebrew University Jerusalem'. He also bought back some of the dead sea water ... i had a drop, a drop of that ... wow, it's very salty (duh)!

Tomorrow we leave at 8:30 a.m. to go to the mall to get some money for my bro and grandfather to have while we're gone, after that we go and book the tickets for Israel, go and buy lots and lots of gum for me, hehe. Then we go and have a long drive to the airport. our flight is at 12:15 but we have to be there an hour earlier.

My hearts beating fast even now ... *phew*!!!

TTFN ~ ta ta for now!!

Stealth Mode

2011-04-29T08:12:00.000-07:00

I'm going to be going in stealth mode for a little while. I know i haven't updated my blog recently, sorry 'bout that. I've been feeling a bit down and feel like i want to go into hibernation. Don't want to go to art classes or music classes, and i don't want to be on the Internet at the moment.
I will come back though with probably lots of news and pictures.

I apologise to those who have e-mailed and written to me for not responding, i will once my hibernation is done.

I will write a bit of what's been going on to get everyone updated.

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My mom and i will be flying down to Cape Town to visit some friends, Tim and Lauren (Seeking Truth in Torah). I'm looking really forward to it and i will take lots of pictures :D. We will leave this coming Thursday and come back on Monday. It will be a new experience for me ... flying.

I want to say thank you to everyone who has been praying for community for my mom and i. We have some new TO friends that we visit often. A mom and her 3 boys (30, 17, and 14). No girls, haha. But that's fine, i think i actually prefer the company of older people, you can learn so much from them. We visit them quite often. We went to their house for Pesach and came home at 2 in the morning. The next visit we came back 1 o'clock in the morning, haha. We come back a reasonable time now :).

I'm glad Yah has blessed us with this family. It feels good to visit with friends that follow Torah too. A breath of fresh air.

My mom and i have booked our tickets to Israel and will be flying there at the end of June for a few weeks. I'm really excited about that trip. My mom and I believe we will get some guidance on what YHVH wants us to do from here now that my parents are getting a divorce. I have a feeling it's something big, my mom too. Please pray for all of us especially for my mom.

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It was the Royal British Wedding today of Prince William and Kate Middleton. I watched the beginning. I LOVE Kate's dress, so feminine and simple.

That's my kinda dress, elegant and beautiful topped with a little tiara!

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What's your favourite wedding dress style?

My Family and I were in Israel .....

2011-04-17T13:08:00.000-07:00

My family and i were in Israel visiting friends there, Avram and Ruti! My dad, brother, Avram and i were doing a tour. We stopped at the Kotel.

The Kotel was out of the city and it was smaller. It was quiet except for 1 Jewish man, who was wrapped in his tallit, his arms were stretched out and he was holding the ends of the tallit so it looked like wings. All you saw was his dark curls and white Kippah.

Avram disappeared.
I walked over to the wall and touched the stones. The minute I touched the wall, i burst into tears. the Jewish man disappeared. I kept on saying, "Thank You, thank You for bringing me home." to YHVH.

My dad, though, just said, "what are we supposed to do here?" He was standing by the Jeep with Mike. I ignored my dad and kept on crying. I stretched out my arms across the wall like i was giving it a hug, i closed my eyes and smiled!

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That was my dream i had a few weeks ago. I have wanted to write it down here but couldn't find the right moment. I feel this is. There was more to the dream ... i know Yah gave it to me, and i know what this part of the dream means, not the other part. In the 2nd half i had on my ring that has YHVH engraved in Hebrew. It was on my left ring finger and had on either side of Yah's name a butterfly, they were flying towards Yah's name. Their wings were coloured Techelet and royal purple. I will never forget that image. It was so beautiful.

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I have some exciting news to share.

*drum roll*

I'M GOING TO ISRAEL!!!!!!!!!

Yep, you read that right. My mom and I will be traveling to Israel in June for about 6 weeks. We were going to go to London too but don't have enough money. I'm waaaaaay excited. I'm going home ... for 6 weeks. This is too incredible.
For those who i know will ask, my brother isn't coming, he doesn't like flying.
But my mom and i will hopefully be able to stay with our friends Avram and Ruti. I don't think i will be coming back, haha. I think the night before we leave i will run away, lol, JK.

Well, I'm going to be practicing still-life drawing so that when we go i will be able to sketch a lot.

*squeals*!!! I'm SO excited!!!!!!!

MJ's Challenge Day 6

2011-04-10T11:37:00.000-07:00

It was cleaning day today so i had to wear something comfy.

Before

After

I put my ring on a necklace. This is the ring tht i got for my b/day last year ...

MJ"s Challenge Day 4 and 5

2011-04-09T09:44:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not posting again. Now i just have to tell everyone that i don't have alot of clothes for this time of year so i'm going to be wearin' the same clothes every now and then.

Before

After

This is what i'm wearing today. It's Shabbat so i can be in my comfy clothes, haha. And my hair is tide up.

MJ's Challenge Day 3

2011-04-07T04:22:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not posting yesterday. The morning was hectic and i forgot to get pictures. But i wore stuff similar to yesterday.

It looks better on, lol.

Now for day 3.

Before

(ignore my slippers)

After

(ignore my socks, hehe)

This is my hairstyle

Whoa, look at my haircolour? lol. It's never done that before ... all redish.

It's usually golden like this, haha. That's cool.

MJ's Challenge Day 1

2011-04-05T00:37:00.000-07:00

It's day 1 of my brother's challenge. It's MJ because Mike's full name is Michael John :).

So ...

Before

This is what i would've worn today! Terrible, i never realized this top made me look so big. Wow. My hair would've been in it's usual grey head covering and messy bun.

After

Much better. It's a bit uncomfortable but i just need to get use to wearing these clothes and not clothes that are 2 sizes too big. I have a green head covering and left my hair down. BTW, i don't mind my hair down anymore. Don't like it tide up all the time.

And this is me just experimenting with my mom's stuff, haha. Went through her cupboard and dug out all her cute head gear. I love this one and am going to wear it often in winter.

The Skin I'm In

2011-04-03T11:52:00.000-07:00

For a very long time I've been battling with my outward image. I compare myself to every girl i walk past in the mall. Take today for example. It's tradition for my mom, brother, grandmother and i to go out for breakfast every Sunday. After eating we go and do some food shopping and also clothes shopping (my gran loves shopping for clothes). I wore my denim skirt, pink t-shirt and green cardigan over. I felt good until i went to the mall and then something happened, it's weird, it just comes on me. And then my brother doesn't exactly help, i mean, i understand, he's a guy, he doesn't understand what girls go through but the little comments can sting like a bee.

So later on today when we went to the mall again for a warm drink, it was pretty cold, i started the comparing thing again. My brother in his special way, moans and groans and then gives me the big brother lecture.

I think my problem for a very long time has been my weight. I'm not overweight but my eyes play tricks on me and i see myself a lot bigger than i am ... weird ...! So all my life I've worn baggy clothes. When i wore pants i wore those army style ones and very manly shorts with baggy t-shirts that my dad got from his work. Occasionally i would wear skinny jeans but then when i came home i would hop into my tracksuit pants. I dressed very sloppy. That has stuck with me forever. When i turned 13, i said "ENOUGH"!! I starved myself for 2 days eating very little. But my mom spotted something up and said that she will help me lose the weight that i want to.

For the next few months i lived on smoothies and veggies and i lost 5 kilos. But then something happened and i fell off the wagon and slowly picked up the weight.

I'm not overweight, all the websites I've been on tell me I'm healthy. My dietician says i'm healthly and when i went to my GP he asked with wide eyes, "you're not trying to lose weight are you?". So i don't freak out as much. I do eat healthily and don't eat as much as a use to. But since i had a problem with my weight i stayed in baggy clothes and that is still with me today.

My brother came to me, looked through my wardrobe. He pointed at the things i shouldn't wear, like my dad's and my brother's hand-me-down t-shirts and baggy jerseys. Said i mustn't wear my shapeless clothes that were meant for men. I understand where he comes from with that because I've always worn my brother's hand-me-down clothes. He pointed to my girly, flowery, lacy clothes and said i must wear that.

So, my brother proposed a challenge. I mustn't wear my 'man' clothes for an entire week and i must wear my girly things. My mom is happy with that, haha.

I just struggle to shop since most of the clothes don't match my figure, I'm very curvy and have broad hips. Most of the clothes don't match that which is very frustrating.

But I'm glad my brother proposed this challenge to me, i think it will be good for me to get out of my frumpy things and into my girly things that i want to wear. I might take pictures of the 'before' of what i would normally wear and then the 'after' of what i must wear :).

I just want to ask all my wonderful followers your ideas on modesty. What are you limits and what do you consider modest?

A Little Bit of This and a Little Bit of That

2011-03-30T12:44:00.000-07:00

OK, i think i need to post something. I don't usually post about how I'm feeling or what's going on here, but my blog is kind of my journal :). I haven't felt like posting about what's goes on here, don't feel like it, it upsets me.

Some of you that follow my mom's blog know that my parents are separated, have been for 3 months now. It's a long story of how things have gotten to this point, and frankly i don't like talking about it. I just needed to tell everyone that. My dad has caused a lot of hurt to my family and i don't trust him. He's caused a lot of stress and tears. I don't have a perfect family, don't have a perfect life and i know i read blogs and walk away and think 'why can't i have a life like that?' but then i remember that they don't write about the bad things that go on and i don't know any of their family situations. I know all family's have problems, some more drastic than others.

Amongst all the downs there's been a lot of ups too. Pesach (passover) is almost here. We have a friend who doesn't live far from us who has invited us to go to her house this year, she's been doing Pesach a lot longer so she knows all the 'ins and outs'. She will be inviting a few people over, her brother has a daughter which i am really hoping will be close to my age.
During the counting of the Omer we will hopefully be going down to the Cape to visit some friends for a few days.
And at Sukkot hopefully the same friends will be able to come up here!! Really looking forward to this year. Last year the Feasts didn't go to well, we were new to it and weren't sure how everything was supposed to go. I call last year our 'practice run' :). But this year is going to be a lot different since we've made a few friends that are also TO. I'm just really praying for a friend my age. My mom has a lot of friends she can talk to and pick up the phone and chat and i seem to not have a lot. I mean, i love all my friends online but i crave a friend in person. I'm not the kinda gal who needs lots of friends, i just want one, that's all ... just one!!!
But I'm being patient and waiting!!!

Another exciting thing is that my mom has done a lot of research, and believe me ... A LOT of research into our family background. It turns out that we have Israeli blood in us, heehee. That was awesome to find out. I'm not making this up people, it's true. Abraham, Isaac and Jacob are my physical forefathers *big grin*!!! Not sure which tribe, though ... would love to find out that bit!

Well, nothing much has happened around here. I think i will post more about that, what's going on around here, i mean ... that's why i have a blog, right? To write down my thoughts, guess i forgot that, lol.

My music concert was last week. My friend, Amy, and i were playing a duet. Didn't make any mistakes, Baruch YHVH. I just kept praying, "Abba, I'm playing this for You, i know it's not a big, Jane Austen piece, but i'm playing for your glory."!! Its was an exciting evening, i shouldn't have worn a jersey, though, lol. It was quite a warm evening and i felt my cheeks getting brighter and brighter. I'm those type of girls that blush easily when nervous or getting a compliment of sorts, and it's very noticeable!! My jersey was pink so, ... yeah, haha!!
I really want to play a second instrument. I just can't seem to make up my mind, i jump from flute to violin to guitar and so on and so forth. Even the bag pipes, lol, JK. Some one is learning the bag pipes on our street and they practice everyday and mainly play the 'happy birthday' song, lol.

So any of you have suggestions on an instrument? I think i'm just thinking of the basic ones and not the 'exotic' ones. Hmmmm ...!!

Autumn's on its way. I like Autumn and Spring, the weather is just right then, not too hot and not too cold, and i can wear long sleeves. I love baggy long sleeves, i have no idea why, i just do =D. But this weather does crazy things and it's pretty frustrating too. Yesterday, it was overcast and windy and rained for a bit, so you wear jerseys and by the look in the sky it looks like it can last a few days. This morning, wake up and the sun it briiiight, with not a single cloud in the sky. But then you getting the real awful days where it's cold in the morning, you dress accordingly, then half an hour later you have to change because it's boiling hot, *sigh*!!! In winter all my freckles seem to fade and then in summer they come back in full force. I notice that when i spend the day in the sun my freckles on my nose and cheeks are darker and there are a lot more, lol. I don't mind, i like my freckles and i don't want them to go away :(!!

I actually want to do a challenge. Lot's of teen girls have a problem with their image and do everything they can to change it. I'm one of those culprits! We can wake up in the morning feeling good about ourselves, get dressed and feel really happy with how we look. We feel confident as we drive and head to the mall and then BANG, something comes and slaps you in the face full force. All of a sudden you don't feel so good and then you start comparing yourself to every girl you walk past. I do that loads of times and i try everything to change how i look so that i can look like somebody else. But recently I've been feeling better, i just keep renewing my mind and saying 'YHVH says I'm beautiful and that's good enough for me'. I'm getting happier with my medium build, my weight, my size, my height, my facial features, my everything and i spend less time in the mirror pointing out my flaws and rather point out my good points.

So, this is the challenge, do a blog post on everything you're thankful God has given you. Say 'thank you for giving me my hair that seems to change colour in the seasons and that it isn't too thick or too thin'. Say what you're thankful for and say why you're thankful for it. You can title your post 'Thank You God for Making Me Beautiful'. If you want to partake you can leave me a comment with a link to your blog =D. It's just to boost your self esteem :).

It looks like my inspiration's striked, so I'm back in the blogging world, yay.

With love,

Me.

My Day

2011-03-21T06:19:00.000-07:00

While i'm waiting for my inspiration to strike i think i will post about my awesome day.

Well, since the day starts at sun down, i will start from last night.

Haha ... we straightened my brother's hair last night. He has this massive mop of curly hair, it's pretty long so my mom and i wanted to straighten it to really see how long it is. He looks handsome with straight hair, it looks soooo nice :)!!!

Today i had a lazy start since it's a public holiday today. At 10am we picked up my grandmother and we went shopping. I got 3 t-shirts, 2 tank tops to wear underneath some of my tops that are too low, and i really cute hat to wear in winter for sleeping ... i will never wear this in public :)!! My mom got a t-shirt and my gran got 2 pairs of shoes, and a few tops.

My one t-shirt, i love this one, so cute.

And, ofcourse, i love dancing and this colour :).

And my adorable hat :).

After we went to the shops we came home, i tried on my clothes, and after that i started cooking some chicken soup for lunch. After lunch my mom cut my grandmother's hair (my mom was a hairdresser before).

That's my gran's natural hair colour ... she doesn't dye her hair =D.

My mom and gran.

So, right now i am going to finish on the computar, excersise for 45 min, wash my hair, and tidy up my room.

I love days like this :).

I also thought of starting something. I think sometimes i will chronicle a day in my life on some days and just let you in on how my days are :).

Anyone wanna join me?

I am at a Loss for Words.

2011-03-17T12:28:00.000-07:00

I have no idea what's going on with me lately. I just can't seem to do blog posts. Seriously. That's why i am not posting so often. I start with a blog post, get a few sentences in, then i just can it. All my inspiration has drained out of me. I have noooo idea why, grrrrr.

So just be patient =D!!

I will do a nice, fun post soon.

New Painting

2011-03-15T01:58:00.000-07:00

Well, this is my new painting? What do you think?

Garlands of Grace

2011-03-08T11:01:00.000-08:00

I got my grey head covering that i wear all day everyday a couple of years ago. I always wore that one because it was easy to just slip on, no tying necessary.

Well, wearing that for a long time, i am getting a bit tired of it. The same thing, everyday and since it's quite wide i can't do any hairstyle other than my messy bun. I do wear tichels sometimes but in the heat it's abit too heavy. My parents bought me 2 wide head bands from Sowers of Hope, but they are abit stiff and don't look nice on me at all. So i have been sticking with my grey one, but then i remembered a website that i have been on long ago. They sell beautiful headcoverings. Very girly.

My mom ordered me 2 last night, i just can't wait for them to get here. These are the 2 that i have ordered ...

I am going to order this purple one next. I ordered the brown one since that will go with practically everything.

I also want to get this one.

These head coverings are stunning and they look comfy.

You can go to their blog HERE, their etsy store HERE and their website HERE!

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Also wanted to let you all know that my mom and i have been featured for the FF magazine.

Passover Seder

2011-03-03T12:32:00.000-08:00

Great news, everybody.

We have been invited to a Passover Seder next month.

Looking forward to it, i can't wait to see what it will be like.

Apparently there's going to be 200 people there. Yay, a bit of community at last =D.

Mama's Torah

2011-02-24T09:59:00.000-08:00

Batyah explains "mother's torah' (Proverbs 1:8; 6:20) - the true expression of the actual heart of our Father's Law, or "Loving Instructions." She suggests that the eternal truths of Torah cannot be taught without releasing the vessels of mercy destined to help lay its foundation. She concludes that unless women are encouraged to contribute to our Father's goal of drawing His people in love, we inhibit the move of the Spirit among us, and we build our houses on shifting sand.

This inspiring book:

- Defines what it means to be a "help meet."

- Explains why it is that wives sometimes seem to be 'against' their husbands.

- Delightfully depicts the roles of husband and wife.

- Lists women who were used by the Father in the Old and New Covenants and defines how they were used.

- Addresses Scripture verses that have been used to hinder women in their walk.

- Reveals the Father's call to women in this hour.

Mama's Torah is especially written to those who hunger for their Hebraic roots and for the restoration of all Israel. Its fresh look at an ancient problem will inspire a new appreciation for the God-ordained role of women in the times in which we now live.

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I loved reading this book and i highly reccomend it. I love how she speaks of the role of women and how they aren't to be trampled over and she lists some women in both Covenants saying how some were prophetesses, co-leaders, judge, military leaders, lawgivesr, deacons, students of Rabbi's and so forth.

But as she says this she still states that the women still need the man and that the man is still above her.

Chicken Soup, Autumn, and Bowling

2011-02-17T04:01:00.000-08:00

I mainly eat soups with my IBS, it's easier for my tummy to digest so i'm looking for new recipes to try. I found this one, Chicken Soup. It is absolutely delicious so i just want to share the recipe =D!!

Ingredients:

2 tablespoons butter - i didn't put butter since it would be too fattening.

1 tablespoon olive oil - i used avocado oil and i put about 5 of them in.

1 pound boneless chicken breasts, diced (500g)

1/2 cup diced carrot

1 large rib celery, diced

12 to 16 ounces sliced mushrooms
1 clove garlic, minced

4 green onions, sliced - i used 1/2 a red onion

2 tablespoons flour

4 cups chicken broth

1/2 teaspoon dried leaf thyme

1/2 teaspoon salt, or to taste

Fresh ground black pepper

3/4 cup heavy cream - and i used 1/2 a can of coconut milk, way healthier

Chop the chicken, carrots, celery, onions and garlic up.

Put them in a pot or large pan. Cook and stir till chicken is nearly cooked.

add mushrooms and continue cooking and stirring till mushrooms are tender.

Stir in flour until blended.

Add chicken broth and spices and the onion and garlic. I put chives in.

Bring to simmer while stirring.

Cover and reduce heat to low; cook for about 10-16 min, until vegetables are tender.

Stir in cream/C milk and heat through.

Taaadaaa. This is absolutely delicious soup. My whole family loves it =D.

Well, I think the weather is cooling down. I think Autumn is pretty close, the leaves are turning colour now.

I went bowling last month for my friend's (Talia) b/day. All the pictures are on my facebook but i'll share a few images here.

Milena and Talia (they're sisters)

Me and Milena

Me and Talia

Talia ready to bowl

Milena bowling

This is my friend's other friend Rachel, haha.

Me ... you see my little red ball down there? See where it's headin'? Yup, the gutter.

That's the walk of victory. You see she only has 2 pins up and that's her 1st shot, grrrr.

Photo time, lol. Rachel climbed all over us. She's quite heavy, haha.

Back to normal =D.

Iranium

2011-02-09T11:52:00.000-08:00

This movie is very interesting. I know it's long but it's worth it.

I can't believe how much hatred the Iranians have, especially for Israel. That's why i keep meditating on that verse about Moshe (Moses) being mistreated along with YHVH's people.

Please make time to watch this video!!!!

Every body's got to realise that the world's gettin' ugly!!!

Beauty ...

2011-02-06T07:17:00.000-08:00

"Your beauty doesn't show ... it shines"

~ My brother, Michael, speaking to my mom!

A Few Tid Bits

2011-02-04T09:58:00.000-08:00

Because of my colon trouble I can’t do the full 21 days for the Daniel Fast. I was hoping to do 7 but tonight I started getting a bad headache and a sore colon. I was hoping to do this fast for an answer and the amazing thing is, is that I got my answer the 1st day I started fasting, baruch Yehovah. I went a bit into my 2nd day and broke my fast by eating dinner =D.

But I’m going to try and eat like I have been but include some sugar and protein since I need that for my IBS. I’m glad I got my answer, now I just need to be patient and let this answer play out. I’m really excited about it =D.

I’m doing a new painting in art, it’s getting on SO well and I’m so happy on how it’s turning out. It’s a man wearing a tallit gadol he’s wearing it like in my other painting, so you don’t see his face. Ha ha, I’m really nervous to get onto skin and faces. Anyway, he’s standing by the Kotel and then in a sort of swirl (in the right corner) it shows the Temple and the prayers from the Kotel flying into the temple doors. I just need to do the temple and then I’m done … so excited!!!!!

I really feel Yehovah telling me to only paint art around His Torah. I love doing things that have meaning, even blog posts. When I do paintings on scenery or flowers or random stuff I lose interest very fast. For example I started lilies before December last year and I am not even half way, ha ha. So I don’t mind doing just Judaica art.

At night my mind goes into over drive and starts thinking of all these paintings that I can do. The one that I think I’m going to do next is a picture of an old Torah scroll with these words in front ‘Shema Y’srael” in Hebrew. I have so many ideas and I want to put them all on canvas right now.

Well … we have just started the Shabbat. It was so peaceful, I love the feeling of starting the Shabbat off properly. I am so glad Yehovah hasn’t done away with His Torah, especially the Shabbat. For one day I can just focus on Him and just relax. My usual Shabbat is wake up at about 9am or before. I usually go to bed late the night before reading and listening to music. Then we listen to a Torah Portion after we’ve all had breakfast and are dressed in our comfy clothes =D, after the TP we have lunch then for the rest of the day we either watch movies or I read the books I’m busy with. I’m reading loads of books right now. I’m reading about 6 books in the Bible (Leviticus (I am ahead of the reading) Isaiah, Proverbs, Nehemiah, Psalms, and John) I’m trying to learn the Hebrew of the books of the Bible. Then I’m reading 3 other books. I don’t really read story books anymore. I read books on the Torah and stuff.

Then after my reading which takes about over and hour I then take a nap and chill for the rest of the day. The next day I feel refreshed and like I can take on the world =D.

I don’t feel like a need holidays anymore. I seem to get my relaxing done on the Shabbat =D. I like what a friend in Israel said, “Yeshua is my Riviera”. LOL.

I hope all my dear friends out there will have a wonderful Shabbat full of Yeshua’s shalom!!!!

Shabbat Shalom!!!

The Daniel Fast

2011-02-03T03:13:00.000-08:00

This is what I’m going to be doing … the Daniel Fast.

You can go HERE to find out what the Daniel Fast is.
I just feel that YHVH needs to clean some things out of me, and I need some answers on my future. I’m in the middle of making a decision about something and I need God to kinda give me an answer. I kinda know what to do but I need more guidance on the matter.

I’ve always wanted to fast but with my IBS I can’t go without food else my tummy gets VERY sore, I struggle enough on Yom Kippur *smile*!!!

This will also help me to eat more healthily. I’ve been eating a lot of crisps and chocolate and junky meals and I’m starting to feel sluggish, lol. So this fast will help me in a lot of areas =D!!!

Anyone want to join me??? =D

Be Content in Every Situation

2011-01-22T01:34:00.000-08:00

This is a hard lesson I’m learning right now. Being content in every situation! I’m confused really. God is so confusing. You think this one thing will really help with your walk with God but it never happens … you pray about it … God doesn’t give it to you. You see all your other friends over the internet get it. They just came to Hebrew roots and they find it. I’ve been following Torah for more than a year and I still don’t have it.

I ask God, why? Why is it happening to everyone around me? Why can’t I also get it? It’s not a crime to have it. Does God really not want me to have it? Even just one? I don’t need a lot of it. Just one. That’s all I ask … that’s not a lot is it?

He’s giving it to everybody else I know, they type about it on their blog and they say they are having an awesome time with it. God has blessed them so much through it. Then I think … why them? … and not me? It must be so awesome spending time with it and learning more about God in an atmosphere like that. Every one out there who has it … you better realize how God has blessed you. I’m still waiting … trying to be patient … trying to be content …!

I know God sees the bigger picture … He knows what’s best for me but honestly I don’t see anything wrong with it. Nothing at all.

But I’m just want to meditate on this verse that Sha’ul (Paul) wrote while he was in prison. My situation can be worse. Maybe God is teaching me to let Him and only Him be this one thing that I really want. Maybe He’s teaching me to cling to Him through thick and thin and never let go because He will never let go of me.

Your all probably wondering what this ‘thing’ is???

It’s community.

Natural Gal

2011-01-18T06:48:00.000-08:00

The first time i came across people going natural and not using store bought stuff, i thought it was very interesting. I didn't do it, didn't have the time (or maybe i was lazy? lol.)!!!! Later on i tried it, doing the no-poo challenge over at Feelin' Feminine. It worked for a while but then my hair always looked greasy, my curls were all limp and not curly like it usually is.
I went back to my shampoo and conditioner, that was ok, better than the no-poo but not 100%. Then i tried this. That worked but then i ran out of oil and i got that from Israel. I don't like the ones you get here.

But then i browsed over Jocelyn's older posts. I found them very interesting and decided to try it.

For my hair i separated the egg white from the yoke. I put about 2 teaspoons of baking soda and a little bit of lemon juice so it foams and spreads over my waist length hair (if you have longer hair you might need to use 2 egg yokes). I use that over my whole hair. Starting at my ends and working my way up to my scalp and gently massaging it in.

*This part is only for curly hair.*
After the wash (if you have curly hair do not wrap it in a towel) squeaze all the water out. Beat the egg white so it's nice and fluffy. I add some essential oil to give it a nice smell so i don't smell like egg, lol. I use this for a mousse so it defines my curls and doesn't make it frizzy. So apply it like mousse.

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For my face i mixed 1/2 teaspoon of honey (don't use the smooth honey) and then about a drop of the smooth honey so it's easy to use and a sprinkle of cinnamon. That 's the face wash. You might think that using honey will be very sticky to deal with but surprisingly it's not. I used to use lemon as a toner but i don't like smelling like lemon, lol. I just use the wash and it is great, my skin is so soft and i havn't gotten any new blemishes. If i do get blemishes i put tea tree on it.

For toothpaste i use baking soda and gargle with lemon juice 'cause the after taste of baking soda isn't so nice, lol. The lemon juice gives a nice fresh taste.

For the deo i am still battling with but i want to try some of this stuff.

So this an exciting journey i'm on right now. Experimenting with different stuff and going natural instead of using harmful ingredients in store bought products.

Everything works wonderfully. My curls are awesome and defined, not frizzy, my skin is soft and i don't have any blemishes so far. Hope it stays like this ...!

Our Church Fathers? Part 3

2011-01-10T01:15:00.000-08:00

And the Lord spoke to Moshe (Moses), saying, "Speak to the children of Israel, saying, If any man of you or of your posterity shall be unclean by reason of a dead body, or be in a journey afar off, yet he shall keep the passover to the Lord. The 14th day of the 2nd month (passover is kept in the first month of the biblical calender) at even they shall keep it, and eat it with unlevened bread and bitter herbs. They shall leave none of it to the morning, nor break any bone of it: according to all the ordinances of the passover they shall keep it." {Numbers 9}

{Constantine}

Council of Nicea 325 AD

From the letter of the Emperor (Constantine) to all those not present at the council.

"When the question relative to the sacred festival of

Easter arose, it was universally thought that it would be

convenient that all should keep the feast on one day; It

was declared to be particularly unworthy for this, the

holiest of festivals, to follow the customs

of the Jews who had soiled their hands with

the most fearful of crimes, and whose minds were

blinded. In rejecting their custom we may transmit to our

descendants the legitimate mode of celebrating Easter;

We ought not therefore to have anything in common

with the Jew, for the Saviour has shown us another way;

our worship following a more legitimate and more convenient course.

And consequently in unanimously adopting the mode,

we desire, dearest brethren to separate ourselves from the

detestable company of the Jew. For it is truly shameful

for us to hear them boast that without their direction we

could not keep this feast. How can they be in the right,

they who, after the death of the Saviour, have no longer

been led by reason but by wild violence, as their delusion

may urge them? They do not possess the truth in this

Easter question, for in their blindness and repugnance to

all improvements they frequently celebrate 2

Passovers in the same year. We could not imitate those

who are openly in error.

How, then, could we follow the Jews who are most

certainly blinded by error? for to celebrate a Passover

twice in one year, is totally inadmissible. But even if this

were not so it would still be your duty not to tarnish your

soul by communication with such wicked people (the

Jews). You should consider not only that the number of

churches in these provinces make a majority, but also

that it is right to demand what our reason approves, and

that we should have nothing in common with the Jews."

Our Church Fathers? Part 2

2011-01-09T03:25:00.000-08:00

Irenaeus, Bishop of Lyon ~ AD 177

Irenaeus declared: "Jews are disinherited from the grace of God."

Tertullian ~ AD 160-230

In his treatise, "Against the Jews," announced that God had rejected the Jews in favour of the Christians.

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In the early 4th century, Eusebius wrote that the promises of the Hebrew Scriptures were for Christians and not the Jews, and the curses were for the Jews. He argued that the Church was the continuation of the Old Covenant and thus superseded Judaism. The young Church declared itself to be the true Israel, or "Israel according to the Spirit," heir to the divine promises. They found it essential to discredit the "Israel according to the flesh" to prove that God has cast away His people and transferred His love to the Christians.

Our Church Fathers? Part 1

2011-01-08T11:02:00.000-08:00

Justin Martyr ~ AD 160

Justin Martyr in speaking to a Jew said, "The Scriptures are not yours, but ours."

Shabbat Shalom

2011-01-07T08:25:00.000-08:00

!!!Shabbat Shalom!!!

May all my Shabbat keeping friends have a restful and blessed day in Yehovah!!

I Exchange

2011-01-02T11:57:00.000-08:00

~My weariness for His strength~

~My weakness for His power~

~My darkness for His light~

~My problems for His solutions~

~My burdens for His freedom~

~My frustrations for His peace~

~My turmoil for His calm~

~My hopes for His promises~

~My afflictions for His balm of comfort~

~My questions for His answers~

~My confusion for His knowledge~

~My doubt for His assurance~

~My nothingness for His awesomeness~

~The temporal for the eternal,~

~and the impossible for the possible~

I'm Back

2011-01-01T09:47:00.000-08:00

Ok, so, i know my break isn't long like i said it would be. But waiting for the end of January is a little bit long, and since i don't have any Torah Observant friends here in SA (hopefully there will be one day, Yehovah willing) i have most of my friends over the internet and they just encourage me so much and staying completely away has kinda made me feel very lonely. So ... I'm back =D. Yay!!!

Yehovah has really revealed himself to me during this short break. He has drawn me ever closer to Him and i just feel like we're best friends. We do everything together now, we laugh, read, walk, cry and do so many things together. I was watching a teaching last night. The preacher said that not many people think of enjoying God. We say we must respect, love, fear, obey, honour and so many other things come to mind but hardly anybody says, "I really enjoy God. He is so fun to be around." Some people when they think of God, they think He is up there, somewhere. He doesn't understand what's going on in our lives, He wears a robe and doesn't understand this day and age. Some come to Him and they are like "yes, sir. No, sir ... Ok, i've got my orders now". Some think legalism and a bunch of other stuff.

But once you get close to Him you just realize that He is the most awesome person to be around. He understands you, He comforts, protects and loves you with all His heart and He just wants you to welcome Him in and let Him into every area of your life. We must enjoy God!!!

We must also realize that we are grafted into Israel. Some people try to strip Yeshua of His Jewishness. Yeshua is Jewish and people just don't like hearing that. We're grafted into every single promise written in His word. Israel is His land, the Jew's land and since we are grafted into Israel, Israel is our land too. We are also in exile and one day we will be home in the new Jerusalem. Not white, fluffy clouds and playing a harp, heaven. Jerusalem.
That is our home, that is where we belong. His Torah is His word and if you read this post you will understand why i say that Yehovah's heart is His Torah. His Torah is our shield. Our protection. It's not a burden. It's a blessing. And last night while i was lying in bed and pondering the teaching i thought . . . when i enjoy being around somebody, i want to learn their likes and dislikes. Their favourite colour and meal ect. It's the same with God . . . (i like to see it this way) He has a favourite colour. Techelet. In the Temple some of the items were covered with cloth the colour of Techelet. The tassles are techelet and the floor under God's throne is Techelet, i just like viewing it like that =D. He has food He likes and dislikes, He has a favourite country, He likes certain clothes and He likes His people to look a certain way.

I am so overcome with joy right now. I just can't stop reading His Torah and just listening to Him talk to me and guide me as He is showing His will for my life. What He wants me to do.

And everyday i am realizing that He has called me to be set apart. I have no interest in wordly things anymore. Now that it's new year everyone is saying Happy New Year and getting all excited when it actually is not the New Year. Seeing all the xmas decorations at the mall just makes me realize that i am not at home.
Going to Norwood (which is a very Jewish area) makes me feel like a belong in a way. Blending in with a set apart people. Hearing people saying 'Shalom' and 'Boker Tov' to my mom and I makes me feel so awesome. Then I come back to our area (which is very muslim) and having a women say mean things to my mom because we look Jewish, makes me feel like an alien.

But I am waiting for my King, Father and Saviour to return and take all of us home ... where we belong.

Break

2010-12-23T09:02:00.000-08:00

I'm taking a break from the blogger world for a while. God is telling me He needs to work in my heart and blogging is being a bit of a distraction right now. I will also have to delay my magazine to March 2011.

I hope all of my lovely followers won't forget about me, lol. I will be back around the end of January. I will still check my mail and answer any e-mails that i get and read 1 blog that i really enjoy but i won't check blogs or comment on anything till the end of January.

I will miss all of my special friends =D.

The History on Make-up

2010-12-14T10:35:00.000-08:00

The Ancient World

The first archaeological evidence of cosmetics usage is found in Ancient Egypt. The Ancient Greeks and Romans also used cosmetics. The Romans and Ancient Egyptians, not realizing their dangerous properties, used cosmetics containing mercury and white lead. Fragrances, particularly frankincense and myrrh are mentioned in the Bible: Exodus 30: 34, Gospel of Matthew 2:11. Ancient Egyptians had a wide extent of make-up utensils. One of them is kohl, which was used to outline the eyes {eyeliner}. It is made up of lead, copper, burned almonds, soot, and other ingredients. It was believed that eye make-up could ward off evil spirits and improve the sight. Even the poor wore eye make-up in ancient Egypt. The production of cosmetics during ancient Rome was usually done by female slaves called Cosmetae.

Africa

The cosmetic uses of kohl and henna have their roots in north Africa.

Middle East

Cosmetics were used in Persia and what is today the Middle East from ancient periods. After Arab tribes converted to Islam and conquered those areas, in some areas cosmetics were only restricted if they were to disguise the real look in order to mislead or cause uncontrolled desire. In Islamic law, there is no prohibition on wearing cosmetics, but there are requirements as stated above, and that the cosmetics must not be made of harmful substances as to harm one's body.

China

A Beijing opera performer with traditional stage make up.Chinese people began to stain their fingernails with gum arabic, gelatin, beeswax and egg. The colours used represented social class: Chou dynasty royals wore gold and silver; later royals wore black or red. The lower classes were forbidden to wear bright colors on their nails.

Japan

A maiko in the Gion district of Kyoto, Japan, in full make-up. The style of the lipstick indicates that she is still new.In Japan, geisha wore lipstick made of crushed safflower petals to paint the eyebrows and edges of the eyes as well as the lips, and sticks of bintsuke wax, a softer version of the sumo wrestlers' hair wax, were used by geisha as a makeup base. Rice powder colors the face and back; rouge contours the eye socket and defines the nose. Ohaguro (black paint) colours the teeth for the ceremony, called Erikae, when maiko (apprentice geisha) graduate and become independent. The geisha would also sometimes use bird droppings to compile a lighter color.

Europe

In the Middle Ages it was thought sinful and immoral to wear makeup by Church leaders, but many women still adopted the fad. From the Renaissance up until the 20th century the lower classes had to work outside, in agricultural jobs and the typically light-colored European's skin was darkened by exposure to the sun. The higher a person was in status, the more leisure time he or she had to spend indoors, which kept their skin pale. Thus, the highest class of European society were pale resulting in European men and mostly women attempting to lighten their skin directly, or using white powder on their skin to look more aristocratic. A variety of products were used, including white lead paint which also may have contained arsenic, which also poisoned women and killed many. Queen Elizabeth I of England was one well-known user of white lead, with which she created a look known as "the Mask of Youth". Portraits of the queen by Nicholas Hilliard from later in her reign are illustrative of her influential style.

Pale faces were a trend during the European Middle Ages. 6th century women would bleed themselves to achieve pale skin. Spanish prostitutes wore pink makeup to contract pale skin. 13th century Italian women wore red lipstick to show that they were upperclass.

Products

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Eyes: Eye liner · Eye shadow · Kohl · Mascara

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I started wearing make-up when i was 12 or 13. I wore it without telling my parents and i didn't ask my mom how to apply it so i spent countless nights in the bathroom trying to figure out how to do it.

When i found out about Torah, i stopped. The whole year that i was 14 i didn't wear a stitch of any make-up what-so-ever. It never even came to my mind.

Now that i'm 15 and i'm starting to break out more with blemishes I asked my mom if i could wear a bit, but naturally. Eyeshadow and eyeliner. I wore that for a few days but now i feel like it's too dark, i don't look bright and clean.

All i wear now is powder to even out all my lumpy bumpies and blush in winter and on days when it's chilly because i look pale. On special occasions i will wear a bit more, i think. I haven't thought of that yet.

I really prayed alot during this time asking YHVH what i should do. He was patient with me and deep down nudging me and telling to stop painting my face. He knew what He was doing when He created me. My mom keeps telling me this when i'm going through stuff like this. "God don't make no junk"!!

It's natural for us girls to go through stages when this little voice inside of us tells us you have to be thinner and prettier. It's not easy living in a world where everything around you is shouting saying you have to be a certain way in order to be a certain somebody. For girls it's tough, since most of the stuff around is telling women they have to dress in the latest fashions, there's no such thing as natural beauty, you have to show off as much body as you can in order to be attractive.

I watched a video awhile ago, the lady said that it's ok to be attractive but not attracting.
I don't think make-up is evil as long as brings out your natural beauty and doesn't create things that isn't there. I think the basics, foundation or powder and blush and mascara if you want is perfectly fine. I don't wear mascara because i have long dark eyelashes and i look ridiculous with it on, clear or brown or black. A really awesome way to make your eyelashes dark is to dye them. It lasts for about 3 months and you feel free to rub your eye without worrying if it's going to smuge. My mom does this.

A way to see of your wearing too much make-up is to still look normal when you take it off.

Remember, we're called to be set-apart!

Garden Pictures

2010-12-11T04:35:00.000-08:00

I realized the other day that i havn't posted any pictures on our garden and home =D.

I find it so funny when people think we 'walk among the lions' and that South Africa is a brown, dry place. Farther North and on game drives out in the country side you get that. But it's not like that everywhere, especially not where i live.

This is my favourite part of our garden. We've been getting rain every afternoon so our garden is nice and green!

I was walking past when i heard a noise so Max came to see what it was.

Max had to go to the vet the other day because he had a sore on his hind leg and it wasn't getting any better. The vet said that it was a tooth puncture from another dog. He shaved the spot and gave Max an injection. Shame, Max was so scared.

The back of our house.

Pool.
I hardly swim anymore. Mike doesn't swim so there is nothing to do in the pool. I swim when friends come over, though. Some people might be wondering how my camping trip went. It was horrible. I was so stressed, I don't like being away from my home anymore. And the bugs, oy vey, i hate bugs and they were everywhere. And Sun City was terrible. I've changed alot spiritually and that place was so ungodly so we left after lunch. I am never going back there again, ever.

What i love about the camp site that i went to is that the animals can run free, i mean, they are in the campsite with you, lol. The baboons did.

The Impala's did.

And the Zebras did.

Roxy.

I love her =D. She has such a great personality!!!

Dining room.

Flowers in our front garden.

I love the little pot there on the tree trunk.

This is my little doodle of it. It's not very good because i wasn't in the mood for sketching but i love sketching because it's so relaxing

Other little doodles. This is a chair in my room.

I'm busy with her face, it's not done yet!

Avocado tree. It doesn't even give us fruit anymore which is a pity because when it did it gave us lovely avo's!

Fig tree. This tree gives us fruit but my grandfather eats them all, lol.

Backyard.

Piano

Mezuzah

Mud cake. Yum!!!

Dad

Headcoverings and Tzniut Challenge Day 6

2010-12-10T06:42:00.000-08:00

Today i helped my mom in the kitchen with Shabbat. I cooked a chocolate mud cake and the chicken. The chicken's stuffing tastes absolutely divine =D. Right now i am exhausted from standing the whole afternoon. Today i have been battling with my sugar level so i was feeling all weak, but i helped my mom alot =D.

We are having a special dinner. We are setting the table all nicely which is a change since my family always eats in front of the TV (grrrrr), i am mainly the only one that eats at the table. My dad is away at a xmas party with his company.

And i just wanted to tell you all about my journey lately on headcovering. Ever since i have decided to not cover my hair anymore i always wore my hair in a messy bun (like i do now). But then i started feeling like i wanted to wear my hair down. After covering my hair for almost a year it felt really odd having my hair down. It's like wearing skirts for a long time and then wearing pants. I e-mailed alot of women asking their oppinions . . .I started seeing 2 sides of the story. Some women told me that your hair is your glory and that you don't have to cover it. Other women told me that you should keep your hair tide up. But the amazing thing is, is that i new what the right thing to do, because of what YHVH has convicted me of, but i wanted to do it my way.

Then i started thinking of women in the past. In biblical times the women never ever had their hair down outside their home. In Jane Austen times, the women also didn't go outside their home without a bonnet on and the women had their hair tide up. The younger girls had their hair down. What really fascinated me, was that the women didn't take their bonnets off when they did church. I watched the BBC movies and i payed special attention to this.

Then to the 1940's. The women also had little hats on when they went outside. This really fascinated me. Then i think of the religions that i know of. Muslim women cover their head, the buddists also cover their head during their church (i don't know what they called their services) and even the christian women covered their heads. Not now-a-days! And, of course, the Jewish women do too.

Then i thought that all this had to come from somewhere.

But then i started seeing the other view and thinking to myself that a women's hair is her glory, God gave us our hair, it shouldn't be covered.

Then, today, i got this feeling. It's the same as the women's body. God gave us our body, it doesn't mean we go flaunt it around for every one to see just because it's how God created us.

So, ladies, i have come to decision. I don't mind showing my hair, but as long as it isn't hanging down for the world to see. My hair is my glory and that is a gift i want to save for my husband. Hair can also be a stumbling block for men (don't ask me how) but i watched this video and he says that he used to work in a factory and every one wore the workers helmet with the hair net, including the women. He said that one day a women wasn't wearing her head gear and he said he actually felt himself double-take and stare at her hair (i think that is what he said. I havn't watched this video recently so i am not too sure but it's somewhere along those lines).

So that is my view on the head covering right now =D.

Now for the Tzniut Challenge day 6 . . .

~Shabbat Shalom~

Tzniut Challenge Day 5

2010-12-10T01:21:00.000-08:00

Sorry that i didn't post this yesterday. I was out and i am trying to cut out my internet time since i am spending way too much time on the computar.

I will post day 6 later today =D.

White top ~ Borrowed it from my mom. It was a bit cool.

T-shirt ~ Woolworths

Skirt ~ My mom gave it to me.

Earrings ~ Woolworths

Tzniut Challenge Day 4

2010-12-08T04:32:00.000-08:00

I helped my mom clean the house today and i had to wash my dogs so i was wearing sloppy clothes earlier =D.

This is also one of my favourite tops. I love the splashes of orange in it =D.

Top ~ Mr Price Sport

This is is excatly like my brown one!

Skirt ~ Woolworths

Earrings ~ Woolworths

My Hairstyle

2010-12-07T06:45:00.000-08:00

This is the hairstyle that i do every day. I do big curls for every-day because it only then takes a few minutes (about 15) to do in the morning. On special occasions, like going out to dinner or the movies i might do smaller curls to make it look more Jane Austeny =D.

This is what you need: Curler, several pins, a clip, hairbrush and if you are not wearing a headcovering you might need other little accessories.

This is the headcovering that i use all the time. I only have found this once and i can't seem to get anymore over here. But yesterday i went to Tznius.com and they sell them which i was very excited about. Once i have some money i will buy more. You can click HERE for the darker colours and HERE for the brighter colours!

1st off. Brush your hair so that you have no knots and then tie your hair in a ponytail.

My hair is frizzy because i have curly hair and i brushed it. What not to do if you have curly hair, lol!

Do not curl your hair without putting it in a ponytail first. Or else when you tie your hair up all your curls will disappear =D.

Clip your hair up but leave abit down.

Curl

Taaadaaaa . . . pretty curl =D.

Do that with the rest of your hair.

Then you start the difficult part of pinning your hair up.

Take a bit . . .

. . . and pin!

I don't like Star Wars so ignore my T-shirt =D.

Take more hair . . . and pin!

Take the rest of your hair . . . and pin.

Neaten it up by using a few more pins. You can leave a few curls down if you want.

Now for the headcovering part. Put it on your head and then push all the rest of it back.

And pull it down to your ears so it's not puffing up in the back.

Tuck the little scrunched up part in the back behind your curls.

And that's the finished product

BTW, i asked my mom if that's my real hair colour (that sounds weird, lol) . . . it is that golden, huh, never knew that which is weird since it's my hair and i should know it's colour, lol.

Oh, almost forgot. DON'T use hairspray or any other products. You don't need to for this style. If you were curling your hair and leaving it down then you would need to but if you do use anything it will only make your hair shiny and looking tatty.

Tzniut Challenge Day 3

2010-12-07T02:20:00.000-08:00

I'm wearing the same outfit as yesterday =D. I love it!!!! I'm just wearing different earrings.

My hair is a bit more curly this morning =D. BTW my hair really isn't this colour, lol. It's the light.

I do have gold in my hair just not that much =D.

And Jamie asked if i can do a video on how i get my hair like this.

I think pictures would be best because i don't know how to do nice videos. I don't think you would like to watch me curl my hair for 10 minutes, lol.

Tzniut Challenge Day 2

2010-12-06T01:33:00.000-08:00

Just to let you all know, i don't have a style. Which is quite irritating. But every day i dress the way i'm feeling.

Yesterday i felt plain.

Today . . . well, i watched the BBC Emma last night so i kind of feel like dressing all prim and proper, lol.

I got this outfit yesterday (except for the white top, head covering and skirt) and i love it to bits. Coral isn't a colour i would normally choose but i love this little cardigan =D.

White T-shirt - Pick n' Pay.

Grey top - Foschini.

Coral cardigan - Mr Price. (BTW, Amy, if you're reading this, this is the top i got with your gift voucher, so thank you =D)

This is my favourite skirt ever. I have a black one like this and a white one =D.

Skirt - Woolworths

I curled my hair . . . not that you can see the curls, lol. I straightened my hair the other day and i didn't curl all my hair so it's not very curly (like it should be)!

Earrings - Diva

These are the earrings i wore yesterday.

Tzniut Challenge Day 1

2010-12-05T01:31:00.000-08:00

So this is the first day of my Tzniut Challenge. You can go here to find out about it.

Blue top and the white one underneath - Pick 'n Pay.

Tichels - Israel

Earrings - Accessorize

Skirt - My mom.

Just above. In summer i can't wear shirts that go past my elbow. Too hot!!

New Shabbat Goodies

2010-12-03T08:16:00.000-08:00

We never had proper Shabbat goodies so my mom went on a shopping spree and bought

some new stuff. New glasses, bottle to hold the juice, bread cover, and candle holders.

Our lovely bread cover. Still trying to figure out what it says . . . anybody know? lol.

Candle holders and our Channukiah. It's not your average one but i love it. It's little pots =D.

1st night of Channukah. We had a little party =D.

Beautiful Blogger Award

2010-12-01T12:06:00.000-08:00

I was awarded the Beautiful Blogger award by Autumn =D. (There are links to see pictures with some of my answers)

This is what you have to do . . .

#1 Put the image of the award within your blog post.
#2 Erase my answers.
#3 Answer the questions, putting your answers in bold or a different color.
#4 Award as many people as you wish! : )

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Questions:

Do you like to wear hats? Ooooh yes. I always liked hats. I love wearing them with earrings, and they make a great modern head covering. I wear these hats i just tuck my hair in to keep it out of my face and with the heat it's not nice to have my hair down.

Do you live in the north or the south? South.

Blueberries, raspberries, or blackberries? Raspberries.

Pearls or Diamonds? Pearls.

Favorite color? i love green but my favourite, favourite is teal green.

Plaid, stripes, or polka dots? Polka dots!

Favorite backround site? Cutest Blog on the Block.

Hearts or flowers? Flowers.

Do you have more then one blog? Yes =D!!!

What are your favorite hobbies? Art, music, art, trying new head covering styles, art, blogging, art, decorating, art . . . you get the idea? lol.

OK. I award . . .

Amy @ Light of the World.

Jessica @ Walking by Faith.

Bess @ Bess's Bag.

Katie @ Katie Wegner's Blog.

Abby @ His Sparrow

Enjoy!!

Invite for Tehila

2010-11-28T23:51:00.000-08:00

I will be putting Tehila on a different site but that one will be private. The blog that it is on now will still be here so that people can find out about Tehila. I would like to control who reads my magazine.

If you would like an invite to read my magazine, you can go to Tehila blog and just go to my page that says 'Invite for Tehila' and just fill in the form and send it to me.

Thanks

Tehila Magazine

2010-11-26T06:19:00.000-08:00

The website for Tehila is finally done.

You all can go there by clicking HERE .

Let me know what you think of it. I decorated it myself *grin*.

Oh, and i am going to fix the blog button and make it bigger.

New Painting

2010-11-23T04:58:00.001-08:00

I love this painting. I think it is my best one so far.

What do you think?

Simple Woman's Daybook. Nov. 20. 2010.

2010-11-22T11:12:00.000-08:00

Outside my window… It's all dark, but it's a nice warm night.

I am thinking ... Of all the battles i'm dealing with. But it's making me stronger. Also about an earlier experience, a lady stopped us and asked if we understand Hebrew. She is Israeli selling dead sea products at the mall.
I am thankful for…My mom. She's awesome, she has helped through so many spiritual battles i've been having alot of lately.

From the Learning Rooms … I'm finished school for the year. I'm just thinking of the subjects i want to take next year. English, Zoology, Herbilism, Botany, Hebrew. And other things.

From the kitchen…Nothing at the moment.

I am wearing…My new black skirt, bright blue top and 2 tichels. One white and over that a brown one with a few tiny blue flowers. (I will write a blog post soon on why i still wear tichels most of the time.)

I am creating…A painting, of course. It is almost done.

I am going… To read soon and buffer my nails. My mom has found a new nail thing. The one side is a buffer but the other side is also similar but it shines your nails so you look like your wearing clear nail polish. It is so cool, it also doesn't come off when you wash your hands.

I am currently reading… I have just finished Genesis. I went ahead of the reading, lol. Now i am just waiting till we get to Exodus. I am also reading Romans again (i finished reading the whole Brit Chadesha the other day =D) I also finished Micah and i will choice a new Tenach book. I am also reading "They Loved the Torah" and i was reading "Women's Wisdom" but my mom is abit weary of that book because some Rabbi's teach Kabbala, eish! And the Psalms, ofcourse. The Psalm has helped through SO many things. It's my favourite book, along with Deuteronomy!

I am hoping…That i will just get stronger in my walk with Yah everyday and to just keep hoping.

I am hearing…. The TV on (i hate that TV) and the computar humming.

On my mind…. My painting, it's looking pretty good. I will finish it tomorrow and post a pic =D.

Noticing that… The time . . . wow it's late.

Around the house… Dad and Bobo infront of the TV, Mike playing his PS3, mom in her room, and me in the study.

One of my favorite things… Chocolate, mmmm, yum.

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week: Hopefully get some sewing done, finish my painting, get my ring (i didn't get it on my b/day, long story, another post =D)!!

A picture to share:…

My favourite thing to do when i was younger . . . play with my Barbie dolls =D!!

God's Way vs. Man's Way

2010-11-20T02:51:00.000-08:00

Man's way of salvation . . .
Salvation = Grace + Faith + Works!

God's way of salvation . . .
Salvation = Grace + Faith - grace and faith produce works.

We cannot earn or merit the free gift of God. Legalism says my works need to be added into the equation of my eternal salvation.
Therefore we need to realize we do not become more righteous when we follow Torah. Torah tells us whether or not our actions reflect God's righteousness.
We are united in and with Messiah.
We are more than clothed with His righteousness, we are righteous. I'm talking identity here, not behaviour!
Because we are untited to the Messiah He lives out the Torah, His intructions, through us. We not only have a new constitution, a new union, but also a new status.

"And you are complete in Him, You are no longer in Adam" {Col 2:10}

"For he that is entered into His rest, he also has ceased from his own works, as God did from His" {Heb 4:10}

Did God rest because He was tired? No! It was because it was complete, done! He not only ceased but delighted in all that He had made. There is nothing we can do to add to the complete work He has done in us. No amount of Torah obedience can add to our standing with God. We are fully equipped to live out the Torah as we are complete in Him! When we became believers we did not simply get something, we became someone! We do not obey in order to become, we obey because of who we are. A believer is someone who has become what they were not before. A citizen of heaven.

"And of Zion it will be said, "This one and that one were born to her; And the Most High Himself shall establish her" The LORD will record, When He registers the peoples: "This one was born there." Selah {Psalm 87:5,6}

"But the is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, Says the LORD: I will put My Law {Torah} in their minds, and write it on their hearts; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people." {Jer 31:33}

There is not a new Torah. Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy didn't get done away with when Yeshua came. It's just in a different location. We also don't follow Torah like a grocery list. The Torah describes God's character and that is written on our hearts.

What Do I Call Myself?

2010-11-17T23:54:00.000-08:00

I don't call myself a Christian.

That might seem crazy to few, but it's true.

I don't call myself a Gentile either.

So what do i call myself?

I am not a Jew outwardly, and i am not a Gentile because 'Gentile' means 'pagan'.

I'm no pagan.

So, again, what do i call myself?

That's easy . . .

I am grafted into Israel.

So what does that make me?

An Israelite.

I am also a Jew. But inwardly.

"For he is not a Jew, which is one outwardly; neither is that circumcision, which is outward in the flesh. But he is a Jew, which is one inwardly; and circumcision is that of the heart, in the spirit, and not in the letter; whose praise is not of men, but of God." {Romans 2:28,29}

Yeshua . . .

2010-11-13T09:44:00.000-08:00

Yeshua came to interpret Torah properly.
Yeshua declared the Torah would endure.
Yeshua rebuked those who forsook the teaching of Torah.
Yeshua commended those who taught Torah.
Yeshua identified those who are part of His kingdom.
Yeshua provided examples for the proper Torah interpretation.
Yeshua established His authority to teach Torah.

I'm Leaving YAY

2010-11-09T23:21:00.000-08:00

I'm leaving to go camping today. I am really excited. I will take loads of pictures and better ones than last year's ones, lol.

My dad left on Saturday because he had a conference at Sun City, since all the hotels were fully booked he had to stay at the camp site so the tent is already up, yay. I hate putting the tent up so i am really glad that i don't have to do that =D.

My brother isn't coming anymore because he has a problem in his ear and he won't be able to swim and . . . he is a city slicker . . . he doesn't like camping, lol so he's happy he doesn't have to go.

It's only a 2 hour drive which isn't bad but right near the end of the journey you get the most horrible road EVER.
It's dead straight for about 1/2 an hour and it just seems to go on forever and ever and ever. Hmmm. . .

Well, better say goodbye now. I come back on Friday but then it's Shabbat (and my b/day ;)) so i will only come back on the computar on Sunday.

Bye Y'all =D.

My Magazine

2010-11-06T11:54:00.000-07:00

I have really been thinking about what i can do to spread Yah's word, His Torah. There are so many magazines out there promoting femininity and modesty and purity but i haven't found anything on encouraging ladies to follow Torah. I have really been thinking and pondering of what i can do and this has been brought to my attention. I really want to write the truth because i am absorbing so many things in the Torah i just want to spread the word. So with much pondering i have decided to start a monthly magazine.

It will be a while till it will be up and running since i still need to organize it and plan on what i am going to do and how i am going to do it. So it will probably be done by next year, perfect timing, =D.

I do need writers though. Me and my mom will write in it and i just need 2 more. Readers will also be able to write but i just want 4 people that will mainly be writing for it.

I need people that are Torah observant and believe they are part of Israel and that they are not Jews or Gentiles but Israelites. If you are interested you can either leave a comment or e-mail me.
Please . . . I NEED YOU!!!!!!!

I hope to hear from many people =D.

This is what i have come up with for my magazine so far . . .

It will be called Tehila which means 'prayer' or 'song of praise'. What i want to accomplish is to encourage young ladies to follow Torah and to try and learn more about the Hebrew language and biblical traditions.

Articles . . .

Reviews on Torah books.
Study on the Hebrew language and to correct the English translation on where they have gone completely wrong and where people misinterpret verses.
Study on biblical traditions.
Eastern recipes.
Interviews with women that are striving to follow Yeshua HaMashiach with all their being.
Natural remedies.
Study on the feasts.
Psalm for the month.
and projects.

There will obviously be other posts on different subjects but those are the main ones. It will change over the months as i figure new things out.

I will also be starting a new website for this magazine and will be posting weekly newsletters on it. About what's happening in Israel and stuff like that.

I just want to base this whole thing on YHVH and Israel. Israel is Yah's land and i love it and i love learning about biblical traditions and sometimes even taking those traditions and applying it to my life.

I hope many will want to read my magazine and be encouraged by it =D.

Rainbow Around the Sun . . . What Does it Mean?

2010-11-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

I just had to type this quickly. Mike found out why the rainbow was around the sun was there. Apparently the ice in the cloud warms up to exactly 22 degrees C and the sun has to be in exactly the right position. My brother's physics teacher said that that normally means very bad weather is on the way. I need to type this quickly since dark rain clouds are coming over us. Here are some pics my dad took.

Beautiful hey?

Fabric Shopping

2010-11-01T04:20:00.000-07:00

I went shopping the other day to look for clothes because all my clothes are all of a sudden small for me. I must be growing, or at least i hope i am because the amount of food i had yesterday was SO not normal for me... ok, prepar yourself for this bit of information... i had 3 rolls, 1 brown and 2 white with stuff on it, after that i had 2 bowls of DAIRY ice-cream (bad for me) with chocolate sauce and i still didn't feel full after that. I ate more than my dad, brother and grandfather. My brother was chuckling the whole time while he was about to fall asleep on the couch. They really laughed when they saw me eat lasagna for dinner. Really abnormal, lol. I better be growing. Mike said i am either growing up or sideways, lol.

Back to what i was saying... i went shopping and found 4 plain and simple tops but... guess what? They were mixed fabric. So right now i am living in a grey top, a R2-D2 top that i got for swimming and a blouse for when i go out. I hate women's clothes. They are so uncomfortable, why can't anyone make plain tops for women? Men's clothing never go out of fashion. Pants and shirts. That's it. *sigh*. So since i am living in 3 tops and can't found any other tops i have decided to break out of my shell and start sewing my own clothes. I found some left over fabric in my basket and did a little experiment on it. I sewed a decent top that i love =D.

Do you know what style i am going for? . . . . . biblical, hehe! I love biblical clothing and have always wanted to wear them. I was a bit nervous thinking i had to go out in public wearing them but i figured that if the muslim women can wear burkas with confidence surly i can wear a dress that is similar to that. I went fabric shopping today and found linen. Mom says it is the coolest fabric to wear. I am really looking forward to sewing them and hope it will turn out all right. A friend in Israel (Ruti) sews her own clothes and nobody taught her. She said Yeshua taught her. After my mom told me this we went to the shops and i sat in the backseat and just spoke to Abba. I do that most if the day, i don't think to myself, i pray. I told my Abba that if He really wanted me to wear biblical clothing i asked Him to either help me find a website where they sell them or help me to sew them.

Well, He taught me to sew them, i made a few mistakes while i was sewing but i fixed those and right now the top that i made looks pretty good. I can't wait for tomorrow. And i don't care if people stare at me. They do now so there really won't be a difference. I don't care what people think of me anymore, i

So He helped me sew them and then on the way to the Oriental Plaza i prayed again and asked Him if He really, really, really wants me to wear biblical clothing that there would be linen (i think linen has a nice biblical look to it). I asked for an olive green and a purple. Guess what? I FOUND THOSE EXACT COLOURS!!!!!!!! Amazing.

I am sewing clothes like these, just tops. Mom said we can go fabric shopping next month again so i will try and sew dresses then.

These are the colours. The creams are the tops that will go over the coloured ones like in the above picture. =D

Oh yeah... When we were at the shops my mom and i looked up at the sky and guess what we saw? We saw a rainbow ring around the sun. It wasn't like a normal rainbow it was this huge ring around the sun and around the sun there was this black ring. It was quite amazing to see that. I couldn't see it properly because whenever i looked up i went to far and looked at the sun and then i had to really rub my eyes because they were watering, lol.

I think my dad took a picture, if he did i will post it on my blog =D.

P.S. There are 2 new painting in my art gallery. The butterfly was for my grandma and the bird for my grandpa.

The Writings of Rabbi Sha'ul or Apostle Paul.

2010-10-28T08:57:00.000-07:00

In his writings, Sha'ul also upheld the validity and dignity of the Torah. Dutch scholar Peter Tomson, who has thoroughly researched the Brit Chadashah (New Test.) writings of Sha'ul, sees a number of interesting facts regarding Sha'ul's letters. He noted that the book of Romans is structured in a rabbinic manner: "The basic structure of this mediating, interpretative way of thinking [in the book of Romans] is reminiscent of . . . Rabbinic midrash." Furthermore, "Justification theology and halakhah exist independently in Paul, and do not exclude one another." In other words, Sha'ul wrote about matters that a first-century rabbi would write about; he wrote in the same style that a first-century rabbi would employ.

Tomson observed that the book of 1 Corinthians reflects Sha'ul's respect for the Torah. He states, "In 1 Corinthians . . . the Law [Torah] is affirmed as an authoritative source of practical teaching." Tomson cited a number of places where Sha'ul referred to the Torah to make his points in the letter to the Corinthians. He noted that Sha'ul cited verses from the Torah to support points, and twice he paraphrased sections of the Torah to illustrate his points. In 1 Corinthians, Sha'ul referred to the Torah on at least 12 occasions. What kind of attitude would Sha'ul have had in order to make so much use of the Torah in this letter? Additionally, Tomson observed similarities between Sha'ul's writings and those of Rabbi Hillel, the famous first-century Pharisaic sage. Tomson stated, "Of special significance for crucial elements of Paul's teaching are similarities with the Hillelite tradition."

This should further cement our understanding of Sha'ul's closeness to the Torah. The first five books of Moses were the foundation of the belief system of Rabbi Hillel's school of thought. The 2 Pharisaic rabbis, Hillel and Sha'ul, had a strong connection to the Torah should not be surprising.

The fact of Yeshua's Messiahship did not interfere with Sha'ul's relation to the Torah. This would be an impossibility, as Sha'ul looked at Yeshua as being promised in the Torah, and fulfilling the Torah(I stress the word fulfill, and not canceling). Professor Santala saw Sha'ul's love for the Torah, and his reliance upon it as his authoritative source, when he wrote.

He based his entire thinking in the Tenach (Old Test.) writings, and again, he [Paul] accepted only Tenach teachings as the sole authority [of his values].

(Remember the Brit Chadashah wasn't even written yet)!

The historic dignity of Rabbi Sha'ul can only be upheld if he is seen as a Torah-observant rabbi. Any other view casts doubts on the statements he made about himself, and on the truth of Luke's writings. It is such Messianic Jews, believing Gentiles, and other Jewish writers (e.g., Rabbi Pinchas Lapide) who believe in the truth of Sha'ul's statements. Attempts at portraying Sha'ul as abondoning the Torah make Sha'ul a hypocrite and a liar at worst, and an inconsistent person at best. Let us understand the Torah-observant Messianic rabbi in such a way as to establish the truth of his writings, personal testimony, and lifestyle. Along the Parkes, it is accurate to conclude, " We shall not have understood the meaning of . . . [Sha'ul's writings] until we have found an interpretation consistent with Paul''s own belief that he was throughout a loyal and observant Jew."

Sha'ul remained a Torah-observant rabbi after he came to believe in Yeshua as the Messiah. Understanding this truth can help us interpret the writings of Sha'ul. They do not contradict how he lived. This fact should help us see Sha'ul with new eyes, for he loved the Torah and did not allow for its cancellation. In fact, as Yeshua, he fought for its correct understanding and use.

[This post is copied from a book called "They Loved the Torah"]

I Love Head Coverings

2010-10-26T05:36:00.000-07:00

Bordom?

2010-10-22T01:12:00.000-07:00

Only in Hollywood do action men look like they live a life of constant excitement. But nobody really lives that kind of life. Or, to be more accurate, even the people who jump out of planes or hunt dangerous animals for a living get bored with it. This is one the of most interesting aspects of being human.

The other day i got a bit upset and irratated because whenever i read a blog something exciting is always happening to them. I don't live a super exciting life. I live a plain, normal, simple life. My day is filled with the usual activities. Art, music, cooking, cleaning, blogging ect.

Marriage, children, friends and family are engaged with numbing routine. Yet we read books, discuss ad-infinitum, think and rethink our work, our exercise, our diet, our clothes and even our dishes.


Being bored is OK and frankly i find it refreshing. Being bored i can sit in my room and just think about things and pray to Adonai and thank Him for all the things He is showing me. God can also talk to you when you are still and quiet. He can't talk to you if your always busy with something and if you mind is always occupied on what you have to do next. God doesn't use a loud, booming voice to tell you something. He uses a soft voice. You have to be still and quiet to hear that voice speaking to you.

Take a look in the magazine rack at your local supermarket. It's filled with super-glossy periodicals on       everything from golf to weight loss, from cooking to cars. But parenting, marriage, prayer and introspection aren't there.

Boredom is also not good to an extent. We have to work, we were made to work but being bored for about 1 hour every few days is good.

When we don't distract ourselves, then we think about what is really important. Anything meaningful needs    repeating, and in the repetition, it will become more meaningful. The less we change on the outside the better we become on the inside.

Not all of us have a super exciting life with something new happening all the time. We must also start seeing excitment in the little things. See an adventure with everything that we do.

Marriage can never be boring if you face the inner challenges you would rather avoid.

Anything, and more importantly, everything, when done repeatedly, can become boring.

{Part of this post highlighted in pink is copied from a post on this website - Aish.com}

How To Take Care of Curly Hair

2010-10-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

I have struggled long and hard with my hair. Before i never knew i had curly hair. I always brushed it after i washed it so when it dried it was frizzy so i have always straightened my hair. Then i cut my hair to shoulder length because it was easier and quicker (i regret ever cutting my hair).

One day i was swimming and then i was lying on my towel, later i came inside looked in the mirror and got such a fright, lol. My hair was so curly. I loved it. Since then (that was about a year ago) i have struggled to get my curls nice. I have finally found a solution. I am writing about this to help other people that have curly hair and struggle with it. Before i have always wanted to have straight hair and i was thinking of chemically straightening it, like a perm, just getting it straightened. Having striaght hair is so much easier to manage than curly hair. You can brush it and sleep without worrying about your hair going all frizzy. But i have also found a solution regarding that.

First off, don't wash your hair while your in the shower. Wash it over the bathtub with your hair flipped over your head. Only use shampoo and don't wash all your hair. Only wash your scalp. Also make sure you use a natural shampoo. I have found a fantastic one without any harmful ingredients (believe me, i made sure of that). Rinse your hair and squeeze all the water out.

DON"T wrap your hair in a towel, that will just make it frizzy. Use your hands and use a towel to dry your very ends. Use oil as a stay in conditioner, any oil will do, i use jojoba oil and then use spikenard for a nice smell. Some friends in Israel sent some oil.

Let it dry naturally. Even in winter, this might seem weird... but using a hairdryer makes your hair frizzy. In winter i sit in front of the fireplace, very old fashioned, lol.

At night i use pins and make a messy bun. Don't use a band, you will get that lump in your hair the next morning, lol.

Yummy

2010-10-20T02:17:00.000-07:00

Rye bread, baby spinach and sun dries tomatoes.

Grated beetroot and carrots with raisens and balsamic vinigar.

The Covenant

2010-10-19T10:44:00.000-07:00

And YHVH said, " This is the token of the covenant which i make between me and you and every living creature that is with you, for perpetual generations: I do set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a token of a covenant between me and the earth. And it shall come to pass, when i bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be seen in the cloud."

After the rain.

My Tallit Katan

2010-10-18T03:45:00.000-07:00

I am SO happy. I finally have my tallit katan. I have waited weeks for this and now i finally have it, yay!!! =D.

ooooooooh, can't wait....

*happy sigh*. YAY!!!

This is where you attach the tassles to. =D

My blouse is long so my tassles are covered up, boohoo.

BTW, katan is small in hebrew so this is my small tallit. The big prayer shawls that the Jewish men wear are tallit gadols. Gadol means big. :-)

I Have Changed My Design

2010-10-17T06:51:00.000-07:00

I can't get my purity ring made. The unblossomed rose one. The jeweller can't see the design properly, so i had to change the design. I have decided to just go for a plain, thin silver ring with YHVH in hebrew ingraved on it and Psalm 51:10. It will be cheaper and it will get done in time. =D!!! Looking so forward to it.

My brother is also getting me a tallit katan to attach my tassles to (yay) =D...

And my grandparents are getting me the Aramaic New Test.

This year i struggled so much on getting a birthday list together. I hate getting things that mean nothing. Like last year i wanted the ipod nano, 12 gigs. Oy vey. I don't even use up 5 gigs. But it does help to do Torah Portions on the Shabbat and listening to other teachings.

So that is why this year i wanted to get things that will help me grow in my walk with Yah. This is all i want. My brother, though, said he has other things for me.

I have done quite a bit of research on big birthday celebrations. I don't like doing the whole 'blow out the candles on the cake and make a wish' thing. It's actually pagan. I also don't like being treated like the queen for the day. Yah has changed me in this area. Alot =D!!!!

Oh yeah... BTW this is what i am going to be painting next once i am finished with a butterfly for my grandmother and a bird for my grandfather. I found it off Jocelyn's blog. I love it =D.

I will just take the box in this corner here away.

What do you think?

Going 100%

2010-10-13T06:47:00.000-07:00

In the Torah we are commanded not to mix any fabrics together. But it only says wool and linen. I have really been thinking about this. I am not sure if it is just wool and linen or if it's any fabric.

I know people that don't mix only wool and linen and then i know others that don't mix any fabrics together. I am not sure what the command is but i have decided to only wear 1 fabrics and not any mixes. And natural fabrics, not artificial ones. I went through my closet the other day and most of my clothes are 100% cotton. I mainly only wear blouses and they are all 100% cotton. All my skirts including my denim ones are 100% cotton too.

So i didn't have to get rid of alot of my clothes.

Wearing only 1 fabric also helps your skin to breathe better. I have noticed that. When i wear blouses i stay cool in the summer heat but when i wear mixed fabrics i feel that i get hot easily.

I'm Going Camping

2010-10-11T09:53:00.000-07:00

Next month for my b/day i will be going camping. I am looking SO forward to it. I love camping especially at this one place. It's near Sun City which is a super fun place to go to. The hotels are SO expensive so we go camping at a place close by and then spend the day at Sun City.

This is the really expensive hotel. REALLY expensive. We went on a nature hike the one time and we came to the entrance. It's very grand, lol. I wouldn't mind staying there. =D

This is the Valley of the Waves..

It's almost like the beach. It's not though *smile*.

The last time i went with my dad and there were SO many Europeans. You could see they weren't used to the sun, lol. They were burnt to the crisp but they weren't brown, they were pink, lol.

And the best slide EVER!!!! The Temple of Courage. I was so scared to do this at first but after the first time i went on there 15 times, lol. My t-shirt had so many holes by the end of it, lol. And my spine hurt because you go down so fast.

Me coming out of a slide. Incase you are wondering what i wear for a costume. I wear 3 quarter gym shorts and a baggy t-shirt. I don't wear what i am wearing in the picture anymore. I find it immodest now.

My hair went blonde and i went red, lol. I had a tan for a while which i was happy with. =D

Can't wait till next month =D.

Another Awesome Experience

2010-10-10T03:54:00.000-07:00

I am taking a break from posting on blemishes just to share with you another awesome experience i have had.

My mom, grandma, and myself usually go to the mall on Sunday to do weekly shopping. We also usually do some window shopping. Going into clothes stores and just looking around. My mom and i also joke about some of the clothes when we see a serious fashion crisis, lol.
We were looking around in Truworths when i saw on a rack a bright (now when i say bright, i mean REALLY bright) orange skirt (serious fashion crisis). I was joking about this when my gran came round took the skirt and stretched it across her hips and started swaying, lol. My mom and i were laughing so hard when this oldish lady stopped and smiled at us and then my gran and her started chatting and she asked if it was my mom's b/day 'cause my gran was buying my mom a top (Truworth's clothes are usually expensive, i hate buying expensive clothes. I like cheap stuff).

My gran said no and said my mom is her daughter and i am her grand-daughter. I think the lady then realized that my gran had a South African accent and asked if we are South African. My gran said, 'yeah'.

The lady looked and my mom and i and pointed at us and said, "aren't they Israeli?". LOL.

THAT WAS SO AWESOME. I love it when people say stuff like that. They see that we are different and think that we are Jewish.

My gran said no and went through the whole thing of us following most of the Jewish laws.
I loved that. =D

Another interesting thing happened. We usually (before we go shopping) have a drink at a cafe. Now i am interested to know where i come from. I mean, i know i am European but i like to know which countries.

On my mom's side i have German, Dutch, French, and Norwegian blood. On my dad's side i have Russian, British, and Dutch. Quite interesting. My mom said that i am a mongrel and not a thorough-bred, lol. I would like to have one of those DNA tests to see where exactly i come from. I love learning about this stuff. =D

Blemishes - Part 2

2010-10-09T00:56:00.000-07:00

ANYTHING SUPERFLUOUS - (something that has been added).

"And yet again there was war at Gath, where was a man of great stature, whose fingers and toes were four and twenty (24), six on each hand, and six on each foot: and he also was the son of the giant." {1 Chronicles 20:6}

"You shall not add to the Word neither shall you diminish ought from it, that you may keep the commandments of the LORD your G-d which i command you." {Deuteronomy 4:2}

Does anyone know who added to G-d's word? Adam. G-d gave the command not to eat the fruit of the tree of good and evil before Eve was even created. Later, if you read closely, Adam told Eve that she can't even touch it. He added to G-d's Word.

"Add you not to His Words, lest He reprove you, and you be found a liar." {Proverbs 30:6}

We must be careful not to subtract or add to His Words. When you don't obey Torah, you're subtracting from His words and when you say that the Torah is done away with your adding because G-d never said He took the Torah away.

"For i testify to every man that hears the words of the prophecy of this book, If any man shall add to these things, G-d shall add to him the plagues that are written in this book: And if any man shall take away from from the words of the book of the prophecy, G-d shall take away his part out of the book of life, and out of the holy city, and from the things which are written in this book." {Revelation 22:18,19}

A BROKEN FOOT - A broken foot would affect your walk, your ability to stand.

"O LORD, i know that the way of man is not in himself: it is not in man that walks to direct his steps." {Jeremiah 10:23}

G-d must direct our steps. We mustn't walk after our own thoughts.

"This evil people, which refuse to hear My words, which walk in the imagination of their heart, and walk after other gods , to serve them, and to worship them, shall even be as this girdle, which is good for nothing." {Jeremiah 13:10}

"Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light to my path." {Psalm 119:105}

"The foolish shall not stand in you sight:" {Psalm 5:5}

"They are brought down and fallen: but we are risen, and stand upright." {Psalm 20:8}

"Ponder the path of your feet, and let all your ways be astablished. Turn not the right hand nor the left: remove your foot from evil." {Proverbs 4:26,27}

Our walk is SO important.

A BROKEN HAND - It has to do with 2 things. Your works and your ability to handle the Word of G-d.

"Study to show yourself appoved to G-d, a workman that needs not be ashamed, rightly dividing the Word of truth." {2 Timothy 2:15}

"Therefore whosoever hears these sayings of mine, and does them, i will liken him to a wise man, which built his house upon a rock." {Matthew 7:24}

"They profess that they know G-d; but in the works they deny Him, being abominable, and disobedient, and to every good work reprobate." {Titus 1:16}

We mustn't just be hearers of the Word, but doers too.

Blemishes - Part 1

2010-10-08T05:23:00.000-07:00

Yeshua tells us that He wants a church without spot, wrinkle or blemish. I can bet you that most people don't really know what the spots, wrinkles or blemishes are. The Torah tells us that there are 12 specific blemishes. So if you don't know Torah, how do you know what spots are or wrinkles or blemishes? How do you know you have gotten rid of them? I will be going through what the Torah says the blemishes are first then i will go through the spots and wrinkles.

BLINDNESS - There is blindness in alot of different areas. Blindness of the heart...

"17 This I say therefore, and testify in the LORD, that you henceforth walk not as other Gentiles walk, in the vanity of their mind, 18 Having the understanding darkened, being alienated from the the life of G-d through the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart." {Ephesians 4:17,18}

The Torah says that gifts can blind the eyes, bribery...

"Because you say, i am rich, and increased with the goods, and have need of nothing; and know not that you are wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked:" {Revelation 3:17}

"But he that hates his brother is in darkness, and walks in darkness, and knows not where he goes, because that darkness has blinded his eyes." {1 John 2:11}

If we don't want to be blind we must add to our faith virtue, knowledge; temperance, patience, godliness, brotherly kindness, charity... but he that lacks these things is blind, and cannot see afar off... {2 Peter 5-9} If we lack these things we are blind.

LAMENESS -

"The legs of the lame are not equal: so is a parable in the mouth of fools." {Proverbs 26:7}

If you say one thing and you are doing another there's unequalness in your walk before the LORD. 'Practice what you preach'.

"8 This people draws nigh to me with their mouth, and honour me with their lips; but their heart is far from me.9 But in vain they worship me..." {Matthew 8,9}

You have to be all in (burn your house down). That is why i keep Torah.

A FLAT NOSE -   A flat nose is when you have no spiritual discernment. If you have a nose like the Tower of Lebanon and are looking at where the enemy is (Damascus) {Song of Solomon} you have great spiritual discernment.

"But strong meat belongs to them that are full age, even those who by reason of use have their senses excercised to discern both good and evil." {Hebrews 5:14}

The Word of G-d is a discerner.

"But the natural man receives not the things of the Spirit of G-d: for they are foolishness to Him: neither can He know them, because they are spiritually discerned." {1 Corinthians 2:14}

"All the while my breath is in me, and the Spirit of G-d is in my nostrils;" {Job 27:3}

If you have no spiritual discernment (a tall nose, lol), you're living after the flesh and since you are living after the flesh you are set apart for distruction.

"And many shall follow their pernicious ways; by reason of whom the way of truth shall be evil spoken of." {2 Peter 2:2}

Burn the House Down

2010-10-07T07:53:00.000-07:00

The hebrew word 'shoove' means to 'repent' or 'return'. The first word is the shin ...

Now in Moses's time they didn't use the modern Hebrew. They used the ancient picture language just think of theEgyptian's hyroglyphics. They were pictures so the picture for the shin was fangs which looks like our modern W. The fangs means to destroy!

The next letter is the beit which was written like a house.

So repent means = To burn the house down.

You have to burn your old, worldly ways in order to truely repent. You have to be all for G-d and not half-in-half-out. Lots of people struggle with letting go with their worldly habits. I pray daily that nothing will be a bolder between G-d and me. I am burning my house down until there is nothing left but ash and then the ash can get blown away in the wind so that nothing is left.

Peculiar Treasures

A Natural Makeup Look

I'm Still Alive.

In the Garden of my Heart

Reckless Abandon

A Tiny Preview

I am Woman

The Time Has Come

Hi World

What Men Think About Eye Make-up

Just My Desire? Or My Abba's Desire Too?

Lady in Waiting

*Clears Throat* ....... HI ........ *smiles*!

Oh, How I Love Him

TTFN

Stealth Mode

My Family and I were in Israel .....

MJ's Challenge Day 6

MJ"s Challenge Day 4 and 5

MJ's Challenge Day 3

MJ's Challenge Day 1

The Skin I'm In

A Little Bit of This and a Little Bit of That

My Day

I am at a Loss for Words.

New Painting

Garlands of Grace

Passover Seder

Mama's Torah

Chicken Soup, Autumn, and Bowling

Iranium

Beauty ...

A Few Tid Bits

The Daniel Fast

Be Content in Every Situation

Natural Gal

Our Church Fathers? Part 3

Our Church Fathers? Part 2

Our Church Fathers? Part 1

Shabbat Shalom

I Exchange

I'm Back

Break

The History on Make-up

Garden Pictures

Headcoverings and Tzniut Challenge Day 6

Tzniut Challenge Day 5

Tzniut Challenge Day 4

My Hairstyle

Tzniut Challenge Day 3

Tzniut Challenge Day 2

Tzniut Challenge Day 1

New Shabbat Goodies

Beautiful Blogger Award

Invite for Tehila

Tehila Magazine

New Painting

Simple Woman's Daybook. Nov. 20. 2010.

God's Way vs. Man's Way

What Do I Call Myself?

Yeshua . . .

I'm Leaving *YAY*

My Magazine

Rainbow Around the Sun . . . What Does it Mean?

Fabric Shopping

The Writings of Rabbi Sha'ul or Apostle Paul.

I Love Head Coverings

Bordom?

How To Take Care of Curly Hair

Yummy

The Covenant

My Tallit Katan

I Have Changed My Design

Going 100%

I'm Going Camping

Another Awesome Experience

Blemishes - Part 2

Blemishes - Part 1

Burn the House Down

Clears Throat ....... HI ........ smiles!

I'm Leaving YAY